No Idea

No Idea- Chapter 5

Alex's P.O.V

"No no no no..no! I can't believe I did that.." I say to myself as I walk through my front door and rush up the stairs two at a time. "I kissed Jack.." keeps running through my head. And oddly enough, I liked it. It felt natural and not rushed or forced like what Jasey does. I plop down on my bed stomach up thinking back what just occured not less than 10 minutes ago. His lips were soft, and when our lips touched it felt like an electric shock. My stomach exploded into butterflies, I've never felt like this with Jasey or any other girl. I think meeting Jack has changed something in me. Something between us clicked like magnets. Opposites attact..and as far as I know, we are beyond opposite. We only have music in common. That's it. But I really don't think that matters. And what does matter is that I have a girlfriend. I can't sneak around with a boy. Well a very attractive boy at that. I cannot date a girl AND a boy. It just isn't right at all.

I'm beyond confussed on what I want. Maybe Jack is just an exception? He makes me feel like I'm worth his time while I feel like I'm a burden on some people like Trevor. Then it dawns on me, if I am gay. Trevor will tell the whole school and treat me like dirt like he does to Jack. I'll be a nobody. Just a gay boy not welcome there. "Ugh..." I groan and sit up and put my head in my hands. "What am I going to do?" I ask myself waiting for an answer I know I won't receive. I sigh and run a hand through my hair.

"Follow your heart is what you should do.." I jump and look up to see my mother in the doorway with a slight smirk on her face. "Mom..I don't know what my heart wants anymore.." I say my voice shaking. My mom notices this and rushes over to me kneeling down in front of me. I take a deep breath and let it out as my mom wipes tears off my face that I didn't know were there. I don't know why I'm crying. All I know is that im settled in my moms lap crying my eyes out as she tries to comfort me. "Shh..Alex, why don't you tell me what happend, yeah?" She tells me as I scramble out of her grasp and sit up against my headboard

"Mommy..I-i- you know my friend Jack?" I ask her looking up in time to see her nod for me to go on. "Well..I-i was at his house a-and I did the stupidest thing ever." I say looking down to my lap to feel new tears burning my eyes and I blink them away. "Lexxie, hunny what did you do?" She says scooting closer to me. Right now I feel like a complete baby. I'm crying over kissing Jack. I take a shakey breath in and exhale. "Mommy..I kissed him." I say letting the tears I'm holding spill. I cannot believe I'm getting this worked up over kissing Jack.

I feel my mom wrap her arms around me and kiss my hair. She accepts me for what I do. While my father really doesn't. I can tell my mom anything and everything. She's my bestfriend. "Alex..if you just kissed him, why are you getting so worked up?" She ask looking down at me. "He's gay though..a-and I'm not. I like girls, I have a girlfriend.." I hear her snort at that. "You call that slutty white trash your girlfriend?" She says cracking up as do I. "Alex..I know for a fact that you are not straight and maybe or maybe not gay..but I can see how you act around him. You've never felt like this with Jasey or any other girl befire her..correct?" She states and I nod. "Do what I said before, follow your heart." She adds getting up and heading out of the room. "Oh, and also use protection." She winks closing the door behind her.

"Mom!" I yell and laughing. Maybe she's right, I should follow my heart. I grab my phone from the floor where I tossed it when I came home. I open it smiling when I see a new text from Jack 5 minutes ago.

*hey Alex, can I stay at your house tonight and possibley tomorrow? :/* I read with a confussed face. I reply with a sure and set my phone on the bedside table.

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After a couple minutes of waiting I hear someone knock on my door. I scramble off my bed ajd pound diwn the stairs to fast that I trip over the last one. I land on the ground with a thud. I roll around on the ground groaning as my mom let's Jack in. "What happend to him?" I hear Jack ask starting to crack up. "Lets just say he tripped down the stairs to let you in.." my mom says sighing heading back into the kitchen.

"Awwh..is poor Lexxie hurt?" Jack teases as he helps me up as I wince. I glare at him and shove him back. "Oh does Alex want to hurt poor Jacky?" He says again teasingly and laughing at my facial expression. I slap him playfuly and widen my eyes as he starts coming at me slowly. I squeal and try to race up the stairs and race down the hall. I make it half way when I'm picked up and thrown over Jack shoulder. "Oh you're gonna get it now." He says throwing me on my bed and tickling me.

I gasp and flail around trying to get away. "J-jack stop!" I try gasping for air but end up laughing "Jack stop or I will piss over you!" I warn and take in a gulp of air when he stops. I look up to see Jack still hovering over me looking at me softly with his brown eyes. We start getting closer to eachother until the door opens and Jack tries to scramble away but ending up on the floor blushing like an idiot. "Did I interupt something here?" My mom asks cocking an eyebrow as Jack stutters a 'no'. "Well anyway dinners ready." She says backing out closing the door.

"Well that was completely embarassing.." Jack grumbles rubbing his butt. I start giggling and Jack cocks an eyebrow to me. "You think it's funny?" He asks inching torwards me. I stop when he's just a few inches away from my face. "Well do you?" He adds tilting his head to the side."Well I-i..uhmm no." I babble on and blush. He chuckles and gets up heading to the door.

"You coming?" He says with a cocky tone. I glare at him and brush past him and head down the stairs jumping off the last one. I sit myself in my regular spot as Jack sits next to me where Daniel should be.