No Idea

No Idea- Chapter 4

Jack's P.O.V

After the project me and Alex hung out still other than I imagined would happen. We seem to have a connection that we still have to figure out. I can see the slightly confussed look upon his face when we're sprawled out on my bed watching old cartoons like we were in kindergarden. Yet he acts comfortable woth it as if he was meant for this, but when my forearm brushes against his thigh while shifting he jerks up and scoots away pulling his legs up to his chest and makes an excuse and leaves. I understand how he feels, this is exactly how I felt when I went through this but it was never a stage in my mix of hormones. We've only been hanging out for a maxium of 4 weeks and my feelings torwards him keep bpiling in my stomach. Everytime I see him on my doorstep I feel my heart tug and start to pound, the palms of my hands get sweaty annd clamy, and my stomach explodes into butterflies. It makes no sense for me because this is how you feel when you fall in love and I know for my own good I will never let that happen until I know his feelings for me too. I don't want to ruin this friendship we have growing over me beijg stupid and do something he's never dealt with. I care for him and I try to reach out to him at school but I get glared on by Trevor which tells me to back off which I do.

No one else other than Rian, and Zach. Zach is Alex's friend and he's actually a nice guy. I thought he'd be a douchebag and go tell Trevor about me and Alex hanging out leading to me getting bullied behind the gym. But no, he said he doesn't really care. And that Trevor can get over his little ego of his and except that Alex is reaching out to new people to hang with. That made me burst out laughing but Alex only half-heartedly smiled. I sometimes I wonder if I'm smuthering the boy. But it's him that comes to me and tells me some things that happen in his dwelling.

Which leads me to where I am now. Sitting on my couch with Alex not even a few inches from me, his legs tucked up in his chest engulfed by the show on the tv. I get up from the sofa and shuffle into my kitchen to grab something to drink and a snack. I open the refigerator scanning the contentd until I sigh and grab a water bottle. As I head out I grab an apple to and plop myself back on the couch. I glance over at Alex and see his brown eyes are wide and moving with the movements on the show. I let a smile creep onto my face. I let it drop as I see what I was doing and sigh shifting into the couch tryijg to get more comfortable, also grabbing the control I change the channel and jump a little when I hear the squeak come from Alex.

"Hey, change that back!" He yells pointing at the tv looking at me like I commited a crime. I sigh and sit up. "Alex you were watching Dora The Explorer..I really don't think it was that interesting." I tell him as he still stares at me his eyes wide and mouth slightly open. "He is so cute.." I think to myself until I get pinned againt the couch by Alex straddling me trying to fumble the remote from my grip. When he does, he doesn't get off me like I expected. But he is still sitting on me legs on either side of my thighs looking at me with slightly wide eyes full of confussion and worry. My head ticks to the side looking at him with my brow furrowed. "Alex what're you doing?" I ask as he sets the remote to the side and putting his hands on shoulders.

He looks into my eyes for a few seconds until he starts coming closer to my face. My eyes widen as I see what he's trying to do. "He's trying to kiss me!" My mind screams. I don't know what to do until his lips settle upon mine softly until applying a little pressure. My eyes flutter shut as I cup his cheek and kiss back. I felt like someone was pricking me with needles and blowing hot and cold air all over me sending me into goosebumps. Our lips mould against eachother moving in sync. We don't pull apart until we hear the front door open and slam sending Alex to jerk away from me moving back to where he originaly was.

I touch my lips slightly and wanting to push them back against to his. I've always wanted that to happen. I've dreamt upon it many times but never thought it would actually happen. I let another smile onto my face. That's all I've been doing since Alex has noticed me that morning. I feel it falter off of my face as I think back to that day.

I had to walk to school because my mom was screaming at me because I forgot to do the dishes the night before. She punched and slapped me and I just scrambled out of the house. I noticed that the bus already passed my stop during my mothers fury and decided to walk. If was pouring when I left the house leaving me to get soaked but lightend up on the way until I heard a honk next to me. I jump as I notice who is in the car. He was looking at me in sympthy which I never really liked to receive. I second guessed myself when I hopped into the car as he questioned me why I was walking in the rain. But all I said was I missed the bus trying to ignore him.

And here I am, having him sit on my lap and kiss me. But my thoughts get over drawn by a sound of glass shatering from the kitchen. I look at Alex who has some fear in his eyes. I tell him to go to my room and he didn't wait a second to scramble up the stairs. I glance at the clock and swallow the lump in my throat.

5:30 p.m.

My mom was home and obviously mad about something. I cautiously stand out of the kitchen. When her eyes land on me I noticed the anger in her eyes and followed by pain. "M-mon what's wrong?" I ask her taking a small step into the kitchen. You've probley think I'm a baby being scared of my own mother but she's capable of hurting me. I notice that she sighs and shakes her head 'no'.

"My boss fired me today Jack. Do you think that's okay?" She snaps going about her buisness in the kitchen knocking over a jar that shatters on the gar with a sickening sound. I nod and back out if the room and up the stairs. I stop outside my door as I hear someone strumming on my acoustic obviously Alex. I hesitate out of the door and open it.

"A-alex you have to leave.." I say as I see his face drop. He puts the guitar back to where it belongs. He stops in front of me looking up. "I - uhm..see ya tomorrow then. I'll text you." I hear him say as he shuffles down the hall and out the door. I flinch when I hear my mother yell up the stairs.

"Jack! Get your ass down here, now!" I sigh as I do awaiting for what will happen.