Broken inside //a kidnapped and abused story//

Chapter 24: Save my heavy dirty soul

"Fuck!" I hit my fist against the wall as a stared at the calendar. I've been gone for a year. I've been 'missing' for a year. I know by now my family has stopped searching for me, that is if they were even looking for me in the first place. I highly doubt they were. I've been gone for a year. That's enough time to think about things. I can now clearly see what my home life really was. My parents were too caught up in work and each other to care about me. They would leave me home alone for weeks at a time. And my brother never paid any attention to me. He was always out with his friends or on a date with a girl. I was always alone in my own little world. It all made sense now. That's why I never thought to call home when I was at Bradeys. I wanted Bradey to be my new home. I wasn't lonely when I was with him. But like all good things that came to a very short end. I now live with 3 boys in a house that I haven't left in a very long time. I long to have the feeling of grass between my toes and to hear the sound of the wind.

"Alex?" I heard a knock on the door interrupting me from my thoughts.

"Yes?" I sigh, opening the door to see Cody.

"Would you like to go get some food with me? He asked.

My head shot up, "You mean go outside?"

"Umm yeah, as long as you promise to not run away."

"Oh my god, yes I promise, I swear across my heart, please get me out of here." I hugged him out of excitement, throwing him off balance and causing him to crash to the floor, me still attached to his hip. We landed with a thud. We both started laughing. I was practically laying on top of him, I stared into his green eyes.

"Do you remember when we dated?" I whispered, locking eyes with his.

"How could I forget it?" He breathed out.

"I miss those days, before all this." I said sadly and laid my head on his chest, he started playing with my hair.

"I do too." He sighed.

We laid there for a few minutes in silence. It wasn't an awkward silence, it was peaceful. He sat up slowly and I got off his chest and sat next to him. He stared at me then before I could even react he bent his head down and kissed me. I was shocked but I didnt pull away. The kiss was amazing. If Griffin ever found out hed kill Cody. At the thought of that I pulled away.

"Cody, we cant. If Griffin ever found-" I began to say.

"He wont find out" He interrupted me.

"Lets just go get some food." I mumbled.

"Fine" He said as he walked in front of me toward the stairs.

"Cody please dont be mad, I just cant watch you get hurt" I trailed behind him.

He stopped half way down the stairs and turned to me. "Alex, drop it"

We walked out the house in silence and got in the car. Suddenly the excitement of leaving wasn't so exciting. The car ride was silent until he put a CD in. It was a CD of my favorite band that he bought me a while ago as a present. There was a tiny CD player that I used to listen to it. It was Twenty One Pilots, and it started with Heavy Dirty Soul, my favorite song.

"Can you save, can you save my, can you save my heavy dirty soul." I sang along quietly.

Cody smiled at me, "So where do you wanna go eat?" He asked.

"Surprise me" I laughed.

"Alrighty" He kept driving for another 10 minutes, then he pulled into the parking lot of a small Italian restaurant.

"Its tiny, but its my favorite restaurant and its very good, trust me." Cody said.

"Ok" I blushed.

They sat us at table and Cody ordered us a pizza to share. It was delicious, the best thing id had to eat in a while. I felt so happen in that moment. I didnt want to go back to that stupid house ever again. But if I didnt Griffin would probably hunt me down and either kidnap me again or kill me and I wasnt taking any risks. 

"So, I havent left that house in months, whats going on in the world?" I asked.

"Youre not missing much, I promise you." He smiled at me.

"Oh, well that good I-" I began saying, before I was interrupted.

"Alex?"

I turned around, there was no way anyone here actually knew me, Griffin flew us all the way to London for gods sake. But I couldn't have been more wrong. Because standing by the front door or the  restaurant was Jared, Bradeys roommate. 

"Oh my god" I whispered. Jared and I stared at each other, then his eyes went to Codys who was sitting across from me. Jared started walking over and I stood up to face him. I couldn't tell if I felt sad because he reminded me of Bradey or happy because there might be someone here to take me away. Before I could figure out how I was feeling I was being pulled toward the back door by Cody. I tried to fight him and pull away, but as usual it was useless.

"Someone stop that man!" I heard Jared yell from across the restaurant as he was running towards us.

"Jared!" I yelled, "Please help me, please find me again!" I yelled back at him as Cody dragged me outside and into the car. He shoved me into the back seat where I fell into a crying mess.

"Why?" I screamed as loud as I could. "What the fuck did I ever do to deserve this? My home life was shitty enough but I had to get dragged into this. I just want a home." I cried and screamed, I couldnt hold it in. 

I stopped crying as the car drove on and instead I just sat there, emotionless. I know Jared will try to find me. We pulled into the driveway of the house I dreaded so. Cody opened the back door of the car and grabbed my arm as we walked inside. We walked through the front door and I stopped. I stared at Griffin and Ace who sat staring at me from the couch. My face was red and puffy from crying and my hair was a mess, Cody was pacing back and forth with his head in his hands. I could tell they were curios about what happened. I just stood there.

"What happened?" Griffin asked awkwardly.

Cody stopped pacing and looked up at him. "The fucking roommate is here in London, Bradeys roommate! Were gonna go to jail, Griffin. Were going to fucking jail!" Cody screamed at Griffin.

"Were not going to jail, Cody calm down were figure it out. Ugh, were not letting her out of the house again. Ever." He said as he glared at me.

I just stood emotionless. I had nothing to say. The small bit of hope still inside me longed for Jared to show up and take me away. But would Jared even want to help me when he find out I killed Bradey? I dont know what I want anymore. This life style will be the death of me. I kept thinking back to earlier when we were in the car and listening to Twenty One Pilots. Who's gonna save my heavy dirty soul now? 

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Hey guys! I dont think theres gonna be many chapters left in this book. But If you guys really want I might write a sequel. Just let me know what you think. Please vote and comment, thank you so much for all the support. Go check out my other books too!!!! I have another one about kidnapping, kinda similar to this one but a little different. Btw the video at the top is a lyric video for Heavy Dirty Soul by Twenty One Pilots. Theyre my favorite band.