We have been driving for what felt like hours but in reality its probably only been about twenty five minutes. Nobody even dared to talk. I think we were all still trying to get over everything that has happened recently. I was introduced to everyone a few minutes after driving of course it wasn't your ideal first introduction but i'm not complaining. I was glad nobody wanted to talk I was to consumed in my thoughts to pay attention.
I'll never understand why she deserved this. This world has been so horrible to her and yet she managed to never let it change her. I just can't get the image out of my head. I didn't even know so much blood could come out of such a small girl. And a part of me can't get the feeling that this was my fault out of my head. Before this all went down I was so happy to finally be part of a family again but now I feel like being part of this group isn't such a good idea. I'm a constant reminder of the sweet girl they lost.
I haven't cried in such a long time. Yes my eyes get watery and there are times where they threaten to fall but they never do. But in this moment I feel like I can't contain them. The more I think the harder it is to keep the water away. Just as I was about to lose it all I felt a cold hand grab mine. I looked over to see that the hand belonged to Maggie. I looked at her with sympathetic eyes and she looked at me the same way.
"I am so sorry I feel like this is all my fau-" I started to say but got cut off
"Don't you dare say this was your fault because it wasn't. Not at all." Rick said from the front seat "You were going to take the place of a boy you never met just to protect him and Beth."
"I just feel like I should've done more to try and protect her." I sighed running a hand through my hair
"You couldn't. No one knew she was going to do that and hell no one knew Dawn would pull the trigger. But shit happens, people die and we move on we don't live in a world anymore where it's okay to take days off and mourn. We need to keep moving no matter what because if we don't more people will die." Rick stated "I could tell how much Beth cared for you. She rather stay in the place then join her family just so she could protect you."
"That's why I feel like being apart of this group that I'm the constant reminder of her." I sighed
"You, Kennedy are the closest thing I have to my sister. If Beth knew we completely abandoned you she would kick all of our asses. Maggie chuckled the best she could "Of course we don't know you that well and you don't know us well but that'll all change in a few days." she smiled gripping my hand tighter
"You're safe with us." Glenn said from next to Maggie
"Thank you. All of you." I nodded towards all of them
We drove for a few more minutes before we pulled up next to the woods. There was no one in sight which was weird because Rick mentioned earlier that there was more people in the group. Abraham turned the truck off before we all got out. I looked at them unsurely as they began to walk towards the empty woods. Noah put a hand on my shoulder before saying "Come on."
We walked for a few more minutes before we came across railroad tracks. As we got closer I noticed there was a two boys. The one had a cowboy hat on and looked about my age and the other one I couldn't quite tell because his back was to me. I also noticed there was a little girl who couldn't be more than two or three and another women who was also turned away from me.
The boy with the cowboy hat looked up at us and immediately started running in our direction. He went up to Rick and hugged him. I had heard from Noah that Rick had a son named Carl and a daughter named Judith, so i'm assuming the boy hugging him right now was Carl.
a few seconds later the boy and girl who were seated on the tracks turned around once they saw Carl run off. As soon as I saw their faces I couldn't contain the tears or excitement.
"ADDISON! ISAAC!" I screamed pushing past Tyreese and Tara
Both of them immediately stood up and started running towards me once we reached each other we engulfed one another refusing to let go. Once we let go my sister grabbed my face in both her hands looking at me like she wasn't sure it was really me or not. A few seconds later she sighed and then brought me into another bone crushing hug.
"I thought you were dead." Addison said with tears streaming down her face
"I thought you two were dead" I repeated to the two of them
"I'm glad your back Ken." Isaac said his turn to bring me into another hug.
"So all this time Kennedy has been with Beth and Isaac and Addison have been with us." Michonne said shocked
After Michonne said that it all went quiet because unlike my siblings Beth never got to reunite with hers. I felt guilt rise in me again and I couldn't help but feel sad. After a few more minutes everybody broke off. Abraham, Rosita,Sasha, Tyreese, Tara, and Noah went to go try and find food while Maggie and Glenn went deep into the woods to try and find a nice place to bury Beth. Daryl had left the group as soon as we got here to try and clear his head. Addison, Isaac and I stayed back along with Rick, Michonne and his kids.
The three of us were just talking and catching up when Rick called me over to him
"Kennedy this is my son Carl, Carl this is Kennedy." Rick said introducing us. I stuck out my hand but Carl declined looking at me like I had two heads
"I have to go talk to Michonne about something i'll be right back." Rick nodded in our direction before leaving the two of us alone
"Well I'm going to go." I said looking up at Carl
"Why should I care where you go."
"I just didn't want to be rude and ditch you." I said
"Whatever." he sighed walking away
"Nice meeting you too." I yelled after him
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a few hours have past making it dark. We had built a fire which was still going pretty strong. Maggie and Glenn went off to bed saying how they were tired but I could tell Maggie was on the verge of tears. Daryl still wasn't back but Carol told me he goes off on his own a lot and always comes back fine. Tyreese had fallen asleep along with Eugene and Noah. Rick and Michonne were on watch duty so they were sitting a good eight feet away.
Currently I was just looking at the fire when I begin to feel like someone is watching me. I look up and my eyes lock with his blue ones, but a minute later he looks away and rolls his eyes. Then a few minutes later he did it again.
"Why are you staring at me?" I asked anger in my voice
"I'm not" he whisper yelled back
"Carl i'm the only one in front of you so obviously you're looking at me."
"Don't flatter yourself." he snickered
"Is this how you always act or are you just in an asshole kind of mood." I asked
"I don't act like anything I just don't like you." he stated matter of factly
"You literally just met me a few hours ago."
"I hated you the minute I saw you. We don't need anymore people in this group."
"I never asked to be apart of it." I stated
"But you didn't say no."
"I didn't say yes or no. Beth told me the only way she would go with your dad is if I came to so I did then I went back so Noah or Beth didn't have to."
"And look what happened." he whispered "Beth is dead. Maybe if you never went in the first place she would still alive!" he yelled but not loud enough for anyone to her
I didn't say anything to him as I got up to leave because honestly he was right.
SO I KNOW THIS PROBABLY ISNT THE BEST CHAPTER I MAY GO BACK LATER AND EDIT IT BUT IDK WE'LL SEE. COMMENT/VOTE I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS THINK :)
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Perilous~ Carl Grimes
Fanfiction"No matter what anyone says, no matter what you think, you are not safe" -Rick Grimes
