Perilous~ Carl Grimes

Chapter 13

Ron and I went our separate ways moments after Carl and I's little moment. I did not have anything else planned today besides talking to Carl, but it is safe to say we are going to be keeping our distance a little longer. Since I was free and everyone else was out doing whatever Deanna had assigned them to do, I decided to stop by Carol's. It as been a couple days since I properly stopped by to talk to her. 

When I arrived at her house, I walked right in. 

"Hey Carol, how are you?" I asked her once I entered the kitchen. I noticed she was in the process of making cookies and decided to help her so she could get done faster.

"I am alright." she sighed but then smiled once she saw me helping her measure the ingredients and plate the cookies that had already been made. 

"Is everything okay? I mean besides this place, I know you are not to fond of the idea of us calling it home."

She sighed again before dropping what she was working on and turned to look at me. "I know Ron and you have been spending time together."

"Okay" I said unsure of what she was trying to get at.

"Has he ever mentioned anything about his home situation? Like his relationship with Pete or how Pete acts around the three of them." She asked cautiously. I thought for a few seconds before realizing that Ron and I haven't shared to much personal stuff about ourselves besides the basics. The only indication I got from him that something could be wrong was the day at the pond. 

"No, he hasn't. We really haven't talked much about our personal lives. The only thing that caused me some speculation was when the two of us were at the pond and he wanted to know about the past and I said that was a story for a different time, and then I asked him about I bruise I noticed on Jessie's arm when she was cutting my hair and he got quiet and repeated the same thing I did."

"Sam stopped by earlier." She paused before looking down in an upset matter. "I think Pete is abusing those kids, as well as Jessie." She said in a low voice almost ashamed of herself for saying it. 

I was speechless. I mean it would explain the bruise and the reason Ron got so quiet that day. It was hard to imagine that during a time like this instead of coming together as a family, Pete is the compete opposite. 

"It would explain a lot." I sighed rubbing my hands on my pants and then gripping the island. "I do not want to pry but this is not something to joke about. Rick needs to know, the whole community needs to know." I said with more anger in my voice astonished at the ac that someone could do that to their own family.

"Look, Kennedy I do not know how true it is. It is just a feeling I have."

"Yeah you are right, it may not be true." I reasoned looking at her for affirmation. 

"I know you don't want to, but I think you need to ask, not directly but imply that you think something is up."

"Yeah, I will try. I just left him so I am not going to do it today but tomorrow I will." I said agreeing with what she previously said.

"Good idea." she nodded

"Should I tell Rick?" I questioned unsure if I should get the leader involved or not.

"I was probably going to tell him the next time I saw him, so it actually might be better coming from you." she nodded in my direction cause me to let out a deep breath and stand up.

"Alright, I guess I'll head over there now. Bye Carol." I hugged her and then began my journey to the house next door.

I knocked on the door a couple times before walking right in and shouting "Rick!" No answer. I stood in the living room for a few seconds realizing that he was not here. I turned towards the door and as I was almost out I heard a deep voice behind me.

"What are you doing here?" Carl asked with a hint of sass.

I turned around only to be met with the same face as his emotion gave off. "I need to talk to your dad. Do you know where he is?" I asked with a roll of my eyes.

"No I have not seen him all day." He shrugged, great he was no help at all.

"Well when you do, can you tell him I stopped by it is important." I sighed running a hand through my hair annoyed at the boy in front of me.

"Yeah sure I'll do just that." he said with a hint of amusement in his voice.

"Ya know what Carl forget it, I'll find him on my own!" I yelled before turning away again before I heard a chuckle behind me.

"You are such a spazz." he continued to laugh

"Seriously, I'm the spazz? Really?" I asked amused at the situation at hand. He just raised his eyebrows and nodded with a smirk. "Oh right cause I am the one who stopped talking to me for some unknown reason, oh wait Enid! That's right, the girl's ass you're up on a daily basis. She is the reason you don't talk to me anymore. Then on top of it, you get upset when Ron and I are together!" I full on yelled now everything coming to the surface. "Did you ever stop and think about how much shit I have been through in the last couple days? No you haven't because for some reason you're to busy being Enid's babysitter!" I yelled one last time before tuning away, feeling like I was ready to burst to tears after my speech.

We both were silent for what felt like ages until he broke it "I'm not up her ass, she needed help too. There's more people here who need to be watched over. We know what it's like out there, they don't." I said matter of factly.

"She doesn't want your help Carl. She seems pretty capable of doing shit on her own." I whispered "If she didn't she wouldn't go over the walls on a daily basis."

"Someone still needs to look out for her." he said "You're looking out for Ron and he's a douche yet there you are, always by his side." he huffed 

I couldn't help but sarcastically laugh at his statement. Tears definitely ready to fall because of how worked up I was getting, but I took a deep breath before calmly speaking again.

"When I found out Noah got killed, I was beside myself. Glenn, Michonne, Maggie, everyone was around me, besides the one person I wanted most in that moment." I paused and briefly looked up at Carl to see him looking directly at me. "It just so happened that the first person I ran into when I was in sheer panic was Ron. After that I don't know, we just got closer." It was once again silent. "I wanted you Carl, but you weren't there." 

I blinked a few times, trying to prevent the tears from falling but it was to late. I had turned to face the exit so Carl couldn't see me losing it but even if he couldn't see he could definitely hear. I stood like that for a few minutes before I felt myself being turned around and pulled in the arms of the boy who had made me start crying in the first place.

"I'm sorry Kennedy." He mumbled into my hair "I should've been there for you." I didn't say anything just nodded into his chest. "Look, I'll lay off with Enid if that is what you want."

I pulled away before wiping my eyes "I don't want you to lose a friend or whatever she is because of me. Obviously you care for her, I just wish you cared a little less." I laughed

"Yeah well I wish you cared for Ron a little less too, there's just something about him that rubs me the wrong way."

"Ron has his own issues. He needs someone to care for him. That person was Enid, then we saw what happened with that so now I guess I am that person." I shrugged looking at Carl to see what reaction I would end up receiving. 

"Is there something you're not telling me because I've talked to that kid multiple times and he sure acts like he doesn't need cared for." 

"There is, but I can't tell you because I don't even know how true it is. That is why I need to talk to your dad." I told him truthfully.

He nodded understanding, "You're okay though right?" 

"Yeah I'm fine." I smiled before pausing "Are we okay?" I asked looking up at him.

He smiled before pulling me into another embrace "Yeah Kennedy we're good."

WOW OKAY SO FINALLY WROTE AFTER SO LONG! I HOPE THIS WAS GOOD AND IT MADE SENSE, I FEEL LIKE IT WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE. ANYWAYS LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK.....LIKE/COMMENT I'M GOING TO TRY AND UPDATE SOON. :)