Silver Satin (Book Two)

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(AN: Im amazing at fillers arent i haha? Anyways this one has a little M in it at the end, if you dont like dont read, also if your not a Leden fan dont read. Dont kill me. haha Revomment -Opal)

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"Letting her lay around isnt going to help her when she has to fight Micah," Alivia whispered harshly from outside of Connor and Octavia's bedroom door, where Lucas had told me to rest at.

    "She was almost poisoned to death!" Connor snapped. 'and I do not care!" Alivia snapped back, "and if I do not care than neither will Micah, he got this close to killing her, what will happen if she slacks off and they meet in Peril and she has no clue what she is up against?" Alivia asked. "We'll be there to help her," Immanuel replied. My body flashed hot at just the sound of his voice and the thought of him outside of the closed door.

    'Dont be stupid, you know what Cora saw," Alivia said harshly. "Wait what are you talking about?" Connor asked. I laid in the bed and stared up at the ceiling, willing my body to move, to make a sound, to do something, but I couldnt do it. "Cora saw what would happen to Eden's friends, you all, Eden is the only one that can come out of this unscathed," Alivia replied.

    My heart stopped as it had a horrible tendency of doing so. I closed my eyes and let the tears fall. In order to save the woman who was the source of all this mess, I had to sacrifice the lives of the people who sacrificed their own to save mine. I would lose the people that meant the most to me to save someone who gave birth to me. It was a choice I really couldnt make and I now knew what my mother meant by not being able to choose. In the end, I was going to hurt someone.

    I curled up in the fetal position, stupidly hoping that if I fell asleep and woke up this would all be a horrendous nightmare and everything would be back to normal when I opened my eyes. But of course that was just a pipe dream.

    After at least 10 minutes of consequetive silence, I heard a knock on the door and then it opened.

    "how much of that did you hear?" Lucas asked as he closed the door behind him and came to sit on the bed beside me. "All of it," I whispered softly, tears betraying me and leaking down my cheeks from behind my closed eyes. He sighed and then moved to lay down beside me on the bed. "I cant loose you," I murmured. Then I started to choke on the salty tears that refused to stop falling. "No, hey...hey!" Lucas exclaimed as he pulled me close into his side. "Im not going anywhere, no matter what that dumb idiot see's, Im not leaving you, i cant leave you," he told me. I looked up at him and my stupid heart skipped a few beats in my chest. it needed to get its priorities straight. I knew that much. and maybe I also knew deep down the reasoning behind what I did next, but I choose to blame it on teenage hormones, the adrenaline of near certain death or something along those lines but in the blink of an eye, my best friend, my protector, had my pants off and his hand in my panties, all while kissing me senseless. and the only thing keeping me from pushing him off me was the fact that I may never get this chance again.

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I threaded my fingers through his hair and pulled his mouth away from mine. I needed to breathe. Where was all my air going? With his neck exposed, I took advantage after I caught my breath, and I bent my head and pressed my lips to his skin, sucking on the flesh above his collarbone.
Lucas groaned softly, bucking his hips against me. Oh god this was it. Spreading my thighs apart with one leg, he pushed me down against his thigh. "I can't do this..." he groaned and then he flipped me over onto my back, pushed himself above me and ripped off my silver satin shirt.
“That was my favorite!," I hissed. 'You'll get over it," he said as he attatched his lips to my collarbone instead. Everything after that seemed to move in overdrive.

“Hold still, hold still,” he pleaded. He took several deep breaths and then began to move more slowly. Deeper. I winced in pain at first then moaned softly. Oh god what if the others heard us?! I looked up at him with wide eyes and he smiled as if he had read my mind. He shifted a little bit, and i groaned. He covered my mouth with his hand and he moved faster. This wasnt fair him doing all the work so I moved my hips trying to get with the rhythm. His hand pressed a little harder on my mouth and he grasped the bed sheet with a fisted hand as he sped up.

I moved my hips again and clenched his jaw. "You're killing...me...." he spat out. He sped up even faster, somehow managing not to shake the bed in the process and then I was thankful for his hand over my mouth.

"Oh God," came in unison out of our mouths except mine was a little more muffled. After a moment, Lucas collapsed against me. Sweat mingled with sweat and then after a moment my breath was having trouble coming. "Yo,' I said pushing at him. 'dude, get your fat ass off me," I groaned as I tried to push him off me. He started laughing.

Seriously i couldnt breathe. "leave it to you to make your first time so freaking noncommital." he rolled off me and I took in a deep breathe.

'We shouldnt have done that," I said as i wrapped myself up in a blanket. He sighed and rolled over to look at me. Why was he so hot? My body tingled and I closed my eyes. 'Theres a lot of things that we shouldnt do but we do anyways, its all a part of life. Just go with the flow,' he said. "You took my virginity, you ass,' I told him laughing. He smiled back at me. "Didnt hear you complaining," he mocked. "You wouldnt have, you had your hand over my mouth," I snapped back. We looked at each other and then a moment later we started laughing so hard we couldnt stop.