Right by your side

chapter 15 :confession

"Are you alright?"vivienne asked leah halfway through ice cream and a movie
"Yeah. .I just....I just wish it would have worked out with Ashton. I really like him viv"
"I know" she placed her hand on hers
"Why does it have to be so hard.why can't we be more like you and Brad"
"Oh please don't wish that"
"Why?"
"We are too..."
"Perfect?"
"Exactly! ! We are too perfect.we never fight.we never ague , we are just passive aggressive and that's really annoying"
"Have you told him this?"
"It would sound really dumb.its not such a big problem like you and ashton"
"Ashton and I are just the best huh?"she said sarcastically
"For what it's worth he really likes you too"
"it's worth nothing"leah stuffed her mouth with more ice cream.
"i am going to go take a shower alright?"
"Yeah , okay" leah said and vivienne gave her a tight side hug.
"I'll be right back"vivienne stood up and went to the shower.
"Where the fuck is my charger vivienne?" leah yelled as she looked around the room
"Didn't you take it with you?"
"Uh yeah I did" she remembered , she tried to think of where she kept her purse then she remembered she tossed it on the floor downstairs "crap" she sighed "I don't want to see him"she ran her hand through her hair "in and out.in and out"she repeated.she stood up from bed walked to the door, opened it and walked out the door.
"Hey"she heard ashton's voice , looked around then saw him sitting on the floor in the hallway "knew you'd come out sometime"
"How long have you been here?"
"Some hours"
"I can't do this right now ashton"she walked to the stairs.
"Okay"he stood up walked towards her, picked her up, tossed her on his shoulder and took her into his room
"Ashton! ! Stop !"she struggled from his grip but couldn't get free.he locked the door to his room and tossed the key
"We have to talk"
"I don't want to talk there is nothing to talk about ..."she rambled
"I just really need you to listen to what I have to say..."
"...you always have excuses whenever you screw up and I can't keep...."they kept on talking over one another and not listening to what the other had to say
"STOP! !" he yelled "for christ sake leah I just need 2 fucking minutes from you!" He ran his hand through his hair and paced around "I fucked up real bad....I know.but I am not embarrassed of you,you are so awesome there is nothing to be embarrassed about "
"You say that now, but your actions say a different thing" she sat on the bed
"Leah. .."he knelt down in front of her "i am fucking crazy about you.i think about you literally all the time.its so amazing.i didn't think it was possible, I used to think it was just a bunch of bullshit when people say that in those movies, you know them right?"he asked and she nodded "turns out it's not, it's so real!! did you know that? " she nodded signalling 'yes' ."and the craziest thing is when I try not to think about you I just end up thinking about you more and when I do succeed in not thinking about you I start missing you so much and I become sad because I can't see you.its all just a big roller coaster that I am trying to understand, i haven't felt this way about anyone EVER and to be honest it scares the shit out of me, but when I see you smile or when I see you do that little happy dance you do while you eat it just makes it all better "he sighed "I guess what I am trying to say is.....you are 'it' for me leah and I am so scared because I don't think I am 'it' for you .I don't think I can find any other person that makes me feel the way you do but you would find so many people who can make you feel better than I ever could" he finished but she still remained quiet " please say something.all this has been really hard for me to admit.i didn't even know I had those feelings, I just .....I just need to know what you are thinking.....please" he pleaded more. He couldn't read her facial expression because it remained neutral.
"I don't dance when I eat" she finally said and he chuckled "you suck.you know that right!"
"I know" he sighed "am sorry" he rested his forehead on hers.she rubbed their noses together then kissed his nose" okay.i forgive you" she smiled
"Awesome" he whispered, leaned in and kissed her "you smell really great" he stood up his lips still on hers .He placed her on the bed as they slowly continued kissing.
The next morning they woke up cuddling each other .nothing further than kissing had happened, they had a long deep conversation throughout the night before they finally went to bed .leah felt soft, warm tickles from her nose to her cheek to her temple and all around her face she opened her eyes and saw ashton staring at her, he looked so handsome with his rough morning hair and sleepy eyes.
"We are such a cliché right now" she said and he burst out laughing
"Well clichés aren't so bad" he leaned down and kissed her cheek "you look beautiful"
"Cliché! !"she yelled again and he laughed "you are too sexy " she jokingly turned her face away like she couldn't bare to look at him anymore which just made him chuckle more.
"What would you like to eat"he kissed her neck and collar bone
"I Dont know...you?" She asked and he shrugged .He reached over to stop his phone from ringing, it was ringing all night too and different female names kept flashing on the screen
"what are you going to do about them?"she hated asking and playing the jealous card but she couldn't help it.
"I am just going to talk to them and tell them about my amazing girlfriend...."
"Girlfriend? "
"What? Don't like it?"
"No I love it" she kissed his cheek " text them instead, I don't want you talking to them" she said
"Yes ma'am" he kissed her lip "so..."he started to whisper "....vivienne has been standing at the door for quite sometime now, trying to listen to our conversation.what should we do?"he asked and she laughed
"Leave her" she smiled
"I have classes in an hour but do you wanna meet up for lunch?"
"Classes? No"she hugged him tighter and he chuckled
"Sorry...so what do you say about lunch?"
"Okay"she said
"Perfect" he kissed her, then stood up from bed to go shower.