Never too far from a beautiful mystery

Insecurities

Andrew's Pov

Let's face it we all want to lay are insecurities on the table and just be are selves. But there is always something that holds us back. Maybe it's that fear of losing that special someone, that someone who makes you feel that feeling that no one can describe. Stephanie is my special someone, she always has been . Let me start from the beginning.

Flashback

We met each other when we were 10 year's old. I remember it like it was yesterday, it was a rainy night. I was just sitting in the rain gazing at the moon, don't ask me why, anyways I was just admiring how the moon reflected it's light on the mountain tops of my home in Pennsylvania. I still remember how the cold rain drops hit my face.

Since I was sitting on my front lawn, I also was watching the cars go by. Suddenly I see someone riding a bike down the street, I could hardly see because of the rain, the only thing that helped me see was the moonlight. That's when I saw the front tire hit a little bump in the road and the person just went flying off the bike.

The body hit the ground so hard that the person probably rolled like 5 times. I got up and ran to that person. As I get closer I could hear soft cries, it was a girl my age, she was holding her elbow in pain. I say "it's ok let me see", she says sobbing and breathing heavily "it hurts please be careful". I look at her elbow and it was scratched up pretty bad, she was bleeding a little.

I helped her up and asked "where do you live?" She answers in pain "like 3 house's down the road". I took her inside my house and called my mom for help. My mom got the number to her house and called her parents. As we were waiting for her parents to arrive me and my mom were patching her up.

My mom asked her "why were you riding a bike at this hour?" She starts crying "I just wanted to ride my new bike that my parents got me but it was raining all day so I couldn't wait anymore". My mom tries to calm her down "look don't cry but you could've gotten really hurt". She says "I know I wasn't thinking". The doorbell rang, I opened the door and it was Stephanie's parents, they asked "can we come in?" I say "go ahead you don't even have to ask".

They rush towards their daughter and hug her "oh Stephanie what were you thinking, thank you guys so much". My mom offered them to stay for dinner. They said shyly "oh we couldn't after the long night our daughter has put you through, again we are really grateful". My mom said "don't worry about that I insist, plus it was my son Andrew who did most of the work". They finally said yes and stayed for dinner, as the grown-ups were laughing and enjoying their meal I was chilling with Stephanie.

We were watching a classic superman movie the one with Christopher Reeves. We both playfully threw popcorn at each other and laugh, we talked for hours. After that we visited each other more often and became close friends.

Present day

So now a couple of years down the road since I first met her, I can't imagine a world without her. But if you haven't guessed or imagined it yet, yes I'm stuck in the friend zone. It's terrible, like seriously this fucking sucks.

Maybe I'm just the dumb ass who can't find the courage to tell her how I feel or maybe because she has a douche of a boyfriend. I don't know what's worse seeing her with him or letting her be with him. I can see her fake smile from a mile away, she only plasters that fake smile on her face when she's with him.

So there I was just reading million miles away from AH_agustus, I wouldn't call myself the romantic type but it's a great story. Anyways my friend Jade sat next to me, she puts her head on my shoulder and asks "what are you reading?" I told her about the book and she smiled with a surprised look on her face "look at you Mr. Romantic, I didn't know you had that side of you", I chuckle "I don't know if I do, I think you meant Mr. Hopeless romantic".

She hits the back of my head softly "really Andrew, I've seen poems you've written for Stephanie and I see the way you look at her, so if that's not romance or love deep down then that's just scary". I laugh "I'm going with scary, so be afraid hahaha", Jade smiles and kisses my cheek "well I'm not scared". She then gets up and skips away.

Ok I know what you are thinking, Jade is cute, funny and awesome but like I said before insecurities. My head wants to explode right now, then the bell rings just to make it worse. I get up, grab my book bag and head to gym class to sweat like a hog. Maybe a little exercise will clear my head, so I jump rope and do some push ups until the class was over.
After that I just jogged home since it was my last class. I jogged past Stephanie's house and saw her holding hands and making out with her boyfriend Marcus. I just kept jogging trying to convince myself I didn't see that.

I get home and head to the bathroom, I look in the mirror and that's when the insecurities kick in, maybe that fake smile isn't so fake, maybe she is happy, maybe something is telling me to just not give a shit. That's when I feel the nausea kick in and I throw up in the sink. It hurts knowing that sometimes you have to sacrifice your happiness for someone else's. But the funny part is, it feels good at the same time.

Author's note
Hi to all that is reading this story, this is my first romantic story, let me know what you think, I hope everyone likes it.

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