The words towards the end of the letter became blurred as tears filled my eyes. What have I done?
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6 months have gone and not a day goes by that I don't think of the day Y/n left me. It makes me sick to the stomach to know I'm the reason she left. I didn't treat her right... She was my princess and deserved to be treated as one, but I fucked up.
I rarely left the house these days... even less than I used to. I drink a lot more to try and drown the memories, but it only makes them stronger. Every night I dream of her... The gorgeous way her face would screw up when she laughed, the way she would stick her tongue out at me when we teased each other and the way her skin felt on mine.
"I met this girl the other day... I think you'd really like her" Phil said to me as we sat on the sofa and scrolled through the endless lengths of tumblr.
"No."
"Well, I knew you would say that so I kind of already arranged the date" Phil informed me with a guilty face.
"What the hell Phil!? You can't do that!"
"I'm sorry, but I just want you to get out of the apartment and meet some new people"
"Well maybe I don't want to! You have to call her and tell her the dates off." I ordered, clearly frustrated.
"Please Dan! Just go on this one date and I won't do this ever again." Phil begged, his eyes wide and innocent. I took a while to think, I really didn't want Phil doing this again.
"This is the only date. Never again." I state, and Phil instantly jumps up in an excited manner, doing a little celebratory dance.
He tells me where the date is and what time, also telling me some things about the girl... I honestly didn't listen.
It was 7pm when I arrived at the small restaurant, as I walked in I noticed a girl who instantly smiled at me. As much as I didn't want to be here, I couldn't be rude. I returned her smile and walked over to the table.
I had been there for about half an hour and I was ready to leave. I couldn't stop comparing the girl to Y/n... Her eyes didn't sparkle like Y/n's did, her smile didn't make my heart melt like Y/n's did.
The girls voice was a muted mumble in the background as I thought about Y/n.
I had been thinking about Y/n so much that when I looked at the window at the front, I thought I saw her walking by. I blinked a few times before rubbing my eyes. Wait... That is Y/n.
I pulled my wallet out, placing $50 on the table.
"I'm really sorry but I have to go" I state quickly, jumping up and running out of the door before the poor girl could reply.
By the time I got out of the restaurant I saw Y/n walking in a small cafe. It was cute and cosy, the type of place she loved.
I ran across the road and into the cafe just as the barista told her the price. I walked up to the counter and placed the amount of change in the mans hand before Y/n could even fish the money out of her purse.
"D-Dan?" She gasped as she looked up at me. God I've missed those eyes...
"Hey" I couldn't think of anything else to say, I was in complete shock.
"uh... here you go..." The barista says as he places the hot mug on the counter beside us, clearly confused with what was going on between us.
"Would... would you like to sit with me?" She asked. Simply hearing her voice gave me the goosebumps.
"Please" I reply as I follow her to a small table in the corner near the fire place. The fire set a gorgeous glow to her skin and all i could do was admire each one of her features.
"How have you been?" She asks, holding her cup in front of her face and peering over.
"Not too good... But that doesn't matter. How are you?" It's true, now that she's here I don't care about me, I need to know that she's okay.
"It does matter... And I'm the same. Not too good." My stomach swirls in a sickly way at the thought of y/n not being happy.
"Why have you not been good?" She asks, and I need a moment to think of what to say.
"Uh honestly... I've missed you. A lot. I can never stop thinking about you.. My life seems so empty without you and I hate myself for messing things up between us." I tell her as she looks into her cup, listening to everything I have to say.
"I've been the same... I miss you so much..." when she says this, I'm honestly surprised.
Everything goes silent as we take each other in, looking into each others eyes.
"oh crap!" she states, jumping slightly. I begin to giggle as I notice that she had been spilling hot chocolate on herself during the silence.
"Your still clumsy" I say with a giggle. She starts to giggle too and it's the most beautiful sound I have heard in the last 6 months.
"Sorry to interrupt, but we have to close up now" An older lady tells us.
We both get up and walk out of the cafe.
"Could I walk you home?" I ask her
"That would be lovely" She replies, bringing a smile to my face. It's hard walking by her side and not being able to hold her hand, but the moment she links her arm with mine, everything seems right again.
Eventually we arrive at her home. I walk her to the door and wait for her to unlock it. She stands in front of me and looks up, and I know right there that I can't lose her again.
"Y/n... I'm so sorry about everything that happened in the past. All the fighting... You were my princess and I should have treated you like one. Please, would you let me take you on a date? So I can prove to you that I could treat you the way you deserve?" I ask with hopeful eyes.
She reaches up and wraps her arms around my neck and I instantly wrap my arms around her waist. This is where I'm meant to be.. I smile as I breath in her dreamy scent and embrace the warmth of her body.
"Pick me up tomorrow night" she whispers before pulling out of the hug and smiles up at me.
"I'll see you tomorrow then" I say, smiling more than I had since she left.
"see you then" she says.
I walk away from her home, giving a wave as she shuts the door. I walk for a minute before running back to her door and knocking.
"Dan what are you-"
"Just one more hug" I say as I wrap my arms around her an hold her tight, nuzzling my face into the crook of her neck. She giggles as I lift her feet off the ground slightly. I hold her for a minute or two before letting go. she smiles up at me.
"Okay, I'll pick you up tomorrow... For real this time" I say as she giggles again.
"See you tomorrow Dan"
