All I Have

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Please help me!!!

"And who do we have here?"her mom says making her sister looked my way..

Jessamyn quickly stood beside me placing her arm around my waist but I kind of shrug her arm with being unnoticed

"Mom..Amber..Victoria Dawson-"

"It's really great to finally meet you both"I said cutting her off before she could've even tell them that we're engaged.

I didn't know why I did it but I'm just really nervous!

I held out my left hand which her sister shook,while her mother looked at me first..

"Can I hug you sweet heart??"she asked  smiling softly at me..I looked at jessamyn who just shrug her shoulder..

"I don't think there's wrong to give her a hug???"she asked

"I know!!but I'm excited to hug and finally meet my daughters love of her life!!And I might hurt her!"she said making me smile..

While her sister chuckled.

"Come on"I said as I wrapped my arm around her shoulder she's a bit smaller than me as I am wearing almost 2inch flat heels but if I'm not I might just taller than her by inch or two..

I felt her arms carefully wrapped around my waist..

"Goodness!!! You are  really very beautiful so much more in person!"she said rubbing my arm firmly but with care..

Same with her sister who gave me such a careful hug.

"Oh thank you I guess"I said awkwardly

"As much as I want to see the women in my life hug and compliment each other...can we go eat??im starving"jessamyn said making her mom and sister laugh..

Ever since Anthony had passed,I never felt the warmth of a mothers hug could bring,I miss my mom so much that it hurts I just want us to be normal to be close to one another just as how we were before...

"You okay doll?"I heard jessamyn said before we get inside the steak house.

"Y-yeah I'm fine..."I said trying not to break in front of her or her mom and sister.as We got our table by the corner which is a bit spacious to my surprise..

"I-I'll just go to the washroom"I said holding back the tears..

" I'll go with you-"jessamyn said making her mom and sister look up at us when they just sat down.

"I can do it..just order something for me please?"I asked her I know she doesn't want to not go with me but I beg with my eyes and I know she understood..

"I-okay"she said..I hand her my clutch and went to where the washroom..

I quickly Locked it and let the tears run down my face..

All I wanted is to make Anthony happy,I agreed on letting him a couple of fights at the underground in exchange he'll do good at school so that he won't turn out like me!Like me who's just depending on my wins on the fights after I finished high school and since then I'd been associated with the underground..

But Anthony have a dream,a goal even.He wanted to be a doctor!

Ever since I saw how happy he got when I let him train with me from time to time made my heart swell in pure happiness...Anthony made me feel like for once I'm doing the right thing in my life,by helping him out but that's what I thought...

If only I didn't let him do that...Then maybe until now my mother loves me the way she loves her daughter,she was the least disappointed when I told the both of them that im gay.i miss her...