Living through Lenses

Chapter Twenty-One

Chapter Twenty-One

Yes guys, this is the end of my story, this is the last chapter. I want to thank everyone who has been reading this story and for the people who have voted and commented. I hope the ending isn't to abrupt (: thanks for the support! 

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Ethan’s POV

It was the day, the last day I would ever get to see her. I wasn’t prepared, not even slightly, to let her go. I woke up early like every single day and began to prepare for school. I tried to think of something else, I tried to listen to full blasting music; it didn't work. The thought just wouldn’t leave my mind; I was going to lose her today. The one person who I cared about with all my heart after my family tragedy would leave me.

It took me a long time, after my mother and brother died, to trust again. I didn’t know how she did it but Kayla helped me believe after I thought that my own father betrayed me. I loved her and I still do but that’s what makes me so scared.

I splashed water on my face and went downstairs to get some breakfast. I checked my phone, still no calls so that means Kayla is still alive. I let a breath out, I didn’t even realise I was holding it in. I sighed; today was going to be one long day. 

I took an hour train ride to get to the next town and then half and hour on the bus to get to Kayla’s town. I had transferred to her school the second I found out that she was moved into the hospital. I shouldn’t have left her at her weakest moment but I couldn’t help being selfish. Imagine knowing from the moment you fall in love with someone that they will be gone before you can be anything serious or even become an adult yet.

I got off the train and felt the cold air blast into my face; for a second all my thoughts disappeared and then returned. I sighed, ran a hand through my hair and tucked my cold fingers into the pockets of my jeans. I silently prayed that she would last another day but then I thought about it and wondered if that would be selfish.

I got to school and greeted a few people, some even gave me pitiful comments since everyone knew Kayla was dying and I was dating her. No one knew I loved her. Even on her deathbed I couldn’t help but think she was beautiful. Sure, she was pale and sick but just seeing her would make me smile and I couldn’t even help it.

School went by slowly, like always and even though I didn’t do a lot of my homework I didn’t get detention because the teachers knew about Kayla. I ran to the bus stop and found the driver waiting for me. He was quite fond of me now. I paid him and took the first seat on the bus.

I thought about her smile, her laugh, her tears and everything I’ve done with her. I checked my phone again, still no calls. I got out of the bus and gave the driver a little wave. I took a deep breath and looked up at the hospital. I felt something vibrate in my pocket and my heart clenched. I fumbled for my phone and flipped it open.

‘Hello?’ I whispered.

‘Is this Mr Rain?’ I took another deep breath.

‘Yes.’

‘Kayla has gone into critical condition and she’s been calling for you.’ I felt my eyes sting and heart pounding. My hands were sweating and my breath started shortening.

‘Thank you.’ I flipped my phone shut and started to run.

I didn’t even bother to take the lifts, I ran up six flights of stairs and subconsciously found her room. Nurses and doctors gave me worried looks as I ran into the room. Her parents were there by her side but her mum was barely looking at her. Her dad let go of her hands when he saw me and quietly shuffled out of the room taking her mum with him. I took his place and placed my sweaty hands on her cold ones. Her eyes flickered open and she almost gasped a breath. She frowned like she was in pain and coughed slightly.

‘Ethan?’ My chest started hurting at the moment I heard how weak she sounded.

‘Yes.’ Her lips formed a tiny smile and she made an effort to breath again.

‘Stay with me.’ She said but it was more of a question rather then a demand.

‘Of course.’ Her whole body relaxed a little. ‘I love you Kayla.’

‘Do I even need to say how much I love you?’ She whispered and I shook my head.

‘Are you scared?’ I asked, my breath even more shaky then hers.

‘I am.’ She stated clearly like she had thought about it a lot.

‘Are you ready?’ She chuckled but broke out into a cough.

‘As long as you’re here.’ I couldn’t help it and let a tear out.

‘What am I going to do without you Kayla?’ I brought her hand up to my lips.

‘For both you and I, you’re going to live.’

The machine went off and her grip on my hands left. It wasn’t like the movies, there wasn’t any doctors coming to revive her. They knew and she knew that today was the day. There was only me crying and her mother sobbing outside not being able to bear looking at her dead child. I didn’t call out her name because I knew no matter how hard I tried she wouldn’t awaken.

And as I walked out of the hospital that day her words sunk in. I knew it would be hard she repair the part of my heart that left with her but I needed to live. For her, for me because you never know when you’re life will end.