Fifth Harmony/You - Should've Been Us

Chapter 30

"I think you've had enough Y/N" Natasha said as I downed another shot. She tried to take the next glass shot away from me, but I pushed her hand away.

"I don't feel it yet," I said.

"I'm surprised you don't have alcohol poisoning right now, let's just go home" Natasha said as the music blasted loudly around us.

I couldn't tell you how long we've been in this club for, but I knew that I didn't want to leave anytime soon. If I left, then I would be hit with reality that Tori and Ally were in fact pregnant and that I had one more day (not counting today) of freedom before I was deployed again. Another girl walked over to me and tried to flirt again and I ignored her just like the others. I even had a heated make out session with Natasha to get the girls to go away.

"I have no home," I said and signaled to the bartender for another round of shots. Natasha quickly called off that request and finally dragged my ass out of the club.

"That's not true, you know" Natasha said trying to steady me as I started to feel dizzy.

"What?" I asked leaning against something as Natasha flagged down a taxi.

"You do have a home" Natasha said wrapping her arm around my waist to support me when the taxi pulled up.

"I'm not going back to that place with Tori" I said.

"No, you idiot I know it might sound dumb but I could be your home...if you want" Natasha said helping me into the taxi and getting in after.

I didn't reply, but instead I just looked at her as she told the taxi driver where to go. She was really beautiful and I couldn't help to think what life would be like to be with Natasha. What if we ran away together, right now? It was a stupid thing to think since the military would find me almost immediately.

We arrived back at the hotel that Natasha was staying in. She helped me walk to the bed and I just collapsed on it while she went to the bathroom. I stared up at the ceiling hoping that I would get some sort of answers of how my life became shit. I was so happy well at least I thought it was and somehow this was the end result. I wanted to drink myself into unconsciousness and hope that I would wake up and this would all just be a really fucked up nightmare. I wasn't able to revel in my thoughts for long when Natasha emerged from the bathroom in a white tank top and black shorts.

"You're really beautiful," I said to Natasha as she sat down next to me on the bed.

Natasha chuckled. "Thank you and you are really drunk" Natasha said.

"I love you, you know that" I said.

Natasha swallowed and then looked away from me. "You won't remember any of this in the morning" Natasha said.

"Well we should take advantage of now then" I said taking Natasha's hand.

"I don't think that's a good idea" Natasha said.

"You'll never know unless you try" I said sitting up and starting to kiss Natasha's neck.

"This is illegal" Natasha said trying to stifle a moan when I kissed the spot on her neck that I knew would change her mind.

"I'm giving consent" I mumbled against Natasha's neck as she closed her eyes.

Natasha sighed and then pulled away. "It's still not right because I'm sober and it will feel like I'm taking advantage of you" Natasha said.

"Do you realize how many times I've been taking advantage of?" I asked.

"I didn't mean it like that Y/N" Natasha said.