If I woke up next to you

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Journal entry # 17

Huh. I haven't written in here in a while.

I've made new friends for the first time since like third grade or something when Hanna Gold asked me out and I said yes just to later find out that she was using me for my home made chocolate chip cookies at lunch.

Anyway back to my new friends. Ones name is Pete Wentz and the other is Brendon Urie.

Pete is extremely nice and even invited me over and we hung out for a while until i had to go home.

Brendon is just a ball of energy i swear he's just a six year old on a sugar high trapped in a 16 year olds body. Anyway I gotta go.

I walked to school and i heard Pete run up behind me.

"Oh hey."

"Hey. dude whats up."

"The sky."

"You're a funny kid Stump."

"Thanks pete."

We got to school and the "populars" came up to us an said

"Hey look its the gay boy and his emo friend."

"H-how did you find out."

"Find out what fag."

"T-that i w-was g-gay."

I was shaking like crazy now i don't think I've ever been more scared in my life. And just to make matters worse Pete is standing next to me so he now know that I'm gay and will probably hate my guts for the rest of my life.

"We didn't know until you just told us idiot. Wow could this kid get any stupider."

What did i just do. I'm such a screw up. I felt the warm tears roll down my cheeks and i just ran. I heard Pete calling after me but thats probably just so he could make fun of me.

I just ran and i somehow ended up at the park. I just collapsed onto the bench and cried. Why an i such a screw up. I went my whole life without getting bullied but without having friends, i was happy and content, i was neutral with everyone. And now a fucked up. My new friend hates me and will probably tell the whole school im gay.

"Hey."

I practically fell off the bench as that kid with black hair from detention popped up from behind the bench. I'm pretty sure his name was frank? Ya thats it.

"Woah woah dude are you crying?"

He sat down next to me.

"Hey whats wrong dude? Are you ok?"

"Ya."

"Dude you're crying. C'mon tell old uncle Franky."

"Well my best friend

Did I seriously just all Pete my best friend he probably hates me.

"I mean ex best friend. Well uh he found out i was gay and so did the "populars" and now he probably hates me."

"Well the gay thing shouldn't be a problem, i'm gay and when I came out no or really cared and i got an amazing boyfriend. I believe you've met Gerard. And do you even know he hates you."

"Well no I-

Just then my phone buzzed. It was Pete crap i forgot we exchanged numbers.

"Alright well ill let you talk to him."

And frank left. I have no idea how he knew it was Pete but ok I guess. I finally read the text

From: Pete

Hey dude are you ok? Where are you? why did you run away? wow I sound annoying I'm so sorry. Just tell me where you are so i can can come get you. you can come over to my house and you can talk to me.

To: Pete

I'm ok. I'm in the park. Just talked to frank the dude from detention.

From: Pete

Ok, I'm just glad that you're ok. I'll be there in 10.

PETES POV

I'm so glad Patrick's ok. I started running to the park which turned 10 minutes into a good 5. i was just really excited to go see Patrick and know he's ok. He's kinda cute. I'm happy he's gay, it give me a better chance.

Shut the fuck up Wentz he probably hates you. my mind screamed.

I finally got there and find him sitting on the park bench. He's clearly been crying. I sat down next to him and I hugged him.

"It's ok pat, i'm gay too."

He just looked up in shock.

PATRICKS POV

"W-what."

I stuttered. I'm just in shock. I'm not alone. Realizing that is a great feeling. I just hugged Pete back and cried again.

"W-whats wrong im s-sorry."

I just looked up smiling and Pete looked calmer now.

"Thanks Pete."

"C'mon lets go home."

And with that we got up and walked home. It was early so we decided to go to subway to eat and hang out for a bit.

"Why were you so worried of what I thought?"

"I don't know, i just never came out before. Not even my own parents know i'm gay. I didn't expect there to be three others in this school."

He looked confused.

"Who are the other two?"

"Frank and Gerard from detention are dating."

"Oh ya i kinda figured with them holding hands and all."

"Pete you're my best friend."

"Thanks patty."

"Ever call me that again i will stab you with a spork."

"Oh so innocent little baby pat has an evil side."

Pete said as he stole my fedora and ruffled my hair.