If I woke up next to you

9

The next day me and Pat walked to school and when we got there Frank walked up to us.

"Hey guys i need to talk to you."

"Ok what's up?"

"Mikey's back. He's been awake but home schooled because he has no memory. He doesn't have it back yet an Gee is taking it pretty hard. Just wanted to let you know if you see Gee just don't talk about it or ask about Mikey."

"Ok got it see ya Frank."

With that i walked Pat to his first class and went to mine.

At lunch we all sat together. patrick kept almost falling asleep on my shoulder.

"Pat are you ok?"

"Yea."

"You sure?"

"Yea. just tired."

"Wanna go home?"

"Nah."

"You sure? i don't want you putting to much pressure on your leg."

"I'm ok."

Then Gerard started singing something he must oh made it up but he just started singing

I'm not okay. i'm not okay. i'm not okay you wear me out.

"That's really good Gee did you make that up?"

"Yea."

"You're a great singer."

"Thanks,"

PATRICKS POV

I'm glad Pete started talking to Gee. It gave me time to sneak away. I just wanted to be alone so i went to the office, explained about my leg and they let me go home.

I walked to the park and just laid under the tree where me an Pete had our first date.

GEES POV

I saw Patrick leave but i just kept talking to Pete. I knew that he wasn't feeling great and wanted to be alone right now. I don't know where he went but it was best.

After a few minutes Pete noticed and asked but everyone just shrugged and said they didn't know.

PETES POV

I don't know where Pat went and i'm worried. Is he ok. where did he go. he seemed off. I just wanna know if he is ok.

BRENDONS POV

Pete got up an ran and we all just let him.

I knew he was going to find Patrick.

I've seen the scars on Patrick.

I don't think Pete has noticed them.

I hope he does soon.

Patrick needs him.

PATRICKS POV

I was back at home now. I never truly did cut that habit that i had when me and Pete were apart.

Now a days i don't feel anything except my love for Pete.

I wish I felt something. It sounds crazy but i miss feeling pain.

Something, anything but now it's all just numb.

And I hate it. Almost as much as i hate me. Almost as much as everyone else hates me. Hell i bet Pete doesn't even like me. I bet he is using me.

He wants to build up my trust as much as possible just so he could break me at my most vulnerable for his own enjoyment.

I guess this is why I never made friends.

Pete change my life.

For better or for worse?

Well I don't exactly know yet.

Who knows i may never find out.

These are the thoughts i have while i use my blade.

I just stare at the red lines all over my body.

What if Pete found out?

He probably wouldn't care. No one does.

Well I guess now's the time to find out.

i thought as Pete walked through my bedroom door.