If I woke up next to you

6

~one week later~

We called the cops on Pete's dad and he's ok. Pete is a lot happier now and back to normal which makes me so happy.

We had gone on a second date at a restaurant. It was great. I think I love Pete.

~the Halloween party one month later~

Me and Pete were at my place getting into our costumes before the party. We were zombies.

"How do I look."

"The hotter fricken zombie i ever saw."

I have to admit Pete is pretty fricken hot all the time."

"Thanks bunny."

Pete's called me bunny for weeks now just because of one joke.

<flash back to three weeks ago>

"Patrick you're a fuckin bunny. You're quiet and innocent and fluffy."

Drunk Brendon slurred because he informed us that he drank his parents beer before we hung out.

"Yes Bren but he's my fuckin bunny. So lay off."

Pete said laughing at Brendons drunkenness.

<flash back over>

"I love you Pete."

"I love you too bunny. Shall we go to the party now."

Pete held out his hand.

"Lets go mr. Wentz."

"Right this way mr. Stump."

Pete kissed me.

Damn I still get butterflies.

We were at the party for a few hours now and I couldn't find anyone i knew.

No sign of Pete anywhere.

I was walking around looking for him and I have to say there were a lot of people making out. One of them better not be my boyfriend. Probably not. right?

Wrong.

There Pete was kissing a girl.

He's gay.

At least i thought he was.

I was right from the beginning he was using me.

Build my trust just to crush me. He won.

I started sobbing and i knew I had to find a way home.

I just ran.

Frank and Gee were making out like everyone else. Brendon was no where to be seen.

I saw this dude i hung out with a few times during class he's really nice i forgot his name umm... Andy! thats it!

"Andy! hey! can you give me a ride home?"

"Ya! i can drive and i don't drink so you're safe!"

Drink? I didn't even know there was alcohol here. Whatever I don't care i just wanna go home.

We were in the car and Andy asked whats wrong. And i told him everything.

"Man thats rough sorry dude. Maybe he was just drunk."

That didn't help. He still ditched me to get so drunk he forgot he was gay or he just lied about that.

He dropped me off at home and i just went to my room and cried.

I decided to take a shower and change out of my costume.

Journal entry #18

Hey journal long time no... Write.

My friends have been helping me a lot so i haven't exactly needed you. But now i have no one to talk to again so here i am.

I can't believe i thought I lived him, or that he loved me. i can't believe i trusted him. This is just proof i can't trust anyone. I should have never fell for it. Pete hates me now i need to move on and get rebuilding that wall he had the nerve to knock down.

The Worst part part about all of this is i have school tomorrow and i have to see everyone.

Even Pete.

PETES POV

This morning i woke up in a bed with some random chic.

I'm fuckin gay how did this happen.

WHERE IS PATRICK

OH NO I FUCKED UP BAD THIS TIME.

I started crying as i quickly put my clothes on and left but the girl grabbed my arm.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm gay."

I said and walked away

I can't believe this.

How did Patrick get home? Is he safe? Does he know? Did he go home with someone else. No. My bunny would never do that. Only a sum scumbag like me. I don't deserve someone so perfect like Patrick. What the hell is wrong with me. I don't even remember any of it. but thats for the better.

I had school. Oh no.

The truth will be revealed if Pat hates me or if he doesn't know. It'll be harder if he doesn't know because then i'll have to tell him what an ass hole I am and then he will break up with me.

If he does then he probably already planned on how he's gonna break up with me.

As soon as i walked into school i saw Patrick.

He looked over and saw me and then tears welled his eyes instantly.

I guess he knows. crap.

I tried walking up to him but he ran down the hallway. I chased him. I could hear him sobbing as he sprinted away from me.

I'm pretty sure anyone could her the sound of my heart breaking.

And it's all because i did that. I hurt Patrick and I couldn't hate myself more for it.