If I woke up next to you

10

"BUNNY WHAT ARE YOU DOING!"

I didn't even cry.

But Pete was sobbing.

He came over and hugged me.

"I love you bunny ok? you need to know that. I truly do love you. I know you doubt i do sometimes. now may be one of those times but you need to trust me i won't hurt you and I will never let anyone hurt you again especially yourself."

I just nodded.

Still no tears.

Pete stayed with me that night and he hugged me close as he slept. And then in that moment i cried. I don't know why but then was the time i felt like i needed to cry and i did.

I felt better. I could feel again.

My heart hurt, my wrists hurt, my side hurt, my thighs hurt, my hips hurt, my leg hurt, and it was great.

I finally didn't feel like an empty shell.

Pete loved me and I love him. I had friends. I had little family left but thats ok because i'm gonna have new family soon and I can't wait.

I just sobbed and sobbed and i unintentionally woke up Pete.

I just hugged him tight and sobbed into his chest.

"Bunny what's wrong?"

"I love you Peter Lewis Kingston Wentz. There is nothing wrong i just love you so damn much. You make my heart ache. You are the last thing in my thoughts before i go to sleep and the first when I wake up. Sometimes you even visit me in my dreams. Nothing is wrong just i feel alive again that's all and I need you to know that with all my heart i love you."

Now we were both sobbing messes but that's ok because we were sobbing messes together.

Pete just kissed me. It was a long and passionate kiss and it was perfect, he was perfect.

We walked to school in the morning and i skipped half way there and then Pete ran up and picked me up bridal style.

"PETE!"

"PATRICK!"

"PUT ME DOWN!"

"NEVER!"

"Fine no kisses for you ever again."

"But Patrick pleeeeaaassseee!"

"Nope"

I turned my head away and crossed my arms to let him no i wasn't joking.

Then he gently put me back down and held his arms out to me.

"Now gimme kissy."

"Come here dork."

"Yes but, I am your dork."

"Yes."

"And you are my bunny."

"Yes."

"What's the cross breed between dork and bunny?"

"Peter are you saying you wanna get me pregnant!"

"That's impossible duh! What i'm saying is that when we get older we are going to have dorky bunny children."

"Ah I see and what will be the names o these dorky bunny children?"

"What ever you want them to be."

"I'm gonna tell them you called them dorky bunnies."

"And i'll tell them you have a fedora problem."

"Shh don't talk about my babies like that."

"I thought I was your baby."

"You're my side baby."

"Ouchy my heart."

"Come here dork i believe I owe you a kiss."

By this time we were right in front of school so then Bren came running up and yelled.

"GET A ROOM. HAHAHAHA JST KIDDING YOU GUYS ARE CUTE!"

"BREN WHY IN THE ACTUAL FUCK ARE YOU YELLING!"

"WHY ARE YOU!"

"BECAUSE YOU ARE!"

"WELL I WAS BECAUSE YOU ARE!"

"YOU MAKE NO SENSE BREN!"

"I know."

And now that his and Petes screaming war was over he walked away.

Pete walked me to first period everyday and went to his class.

Ugh math was so boring.

Our teacher was Mr. Russ

"Patrick are you paying attention?"

"Yea."

"Then answer the question."

"Um.... I-i don't know sir."

"Detention after school with me."

"Ok."

At lunch i talked to Pete and told him i had detention. He understood an promised to meet me after school.

After school in detention i was alone.

Great just me and a teacher.

Mr. Russ came in.

"Ok Pat come here."

I did and then he whispered in my ear.

"So i hear you cut."

"W-w-w-

"Don't fucking lie Patrick."

"H-h-how d-do you know?"

"I saw your scars. You're just a suicidal teen. You probably won't make it to adult hood. Gay faggot. I hate people like you. You should go jump off a bridge. Do us all a favor and kill yourself already it will be less of a burden for all of us. Especially Pete."

So i ran.

I ran straight out the door.

I ran back home to my room and locked the door.

I got texts from Pete but i didn't answer them.

From: My dork

Hey bunny. Wanna hang out?

From: My dork

Are you ok?

From: My dork

Pat please answer i love you.

From: My dork

Pat i'm gonna come over i you don't answer.

From: My dork

I'm coming over I'll be there in 10

I just sat in the middle of the floor and waited for Pete. if he wasn't here in 10 minutes like he said i would do it an his burden would be gone.

I know seems selfish. Pressuring someone to get there on time to save you wen they don't even know that they are timed to save their loved one. but i'm a selfish person. the whole world is selfish. You need to realize it sooner or later.

It was 5:45 pm when he texted me.

It was 5:54 pm when he got here.

On time.