Finding My Husband's Heart

Chapter 4: The Explanation

Someone was sprinkling water on my face and I slowly opened my eyes. Little by little, things around me came into focus. I recalled what happened immediately. He punched me. Was my childhood crush worth all this? Silly I said 'yes!' but I knew there was no going back until he let me go. Would I go if he did? Should I ask him if he wants a divorce?

I saw him looking out the window waiting for me to stand up of course. His irresistible good looks coming into my eyes again. The voice in my head said, 'but he punched you!' I ignored it and I stared at him shamelessly after everything he did to me. Was he worth it? Yes. I love him. Even if he didn't. I don't care, I still love him. Let him beat me to death by all means but I would never leave him. But I needed to ask. Love is giving anything the person you love wants. So I guess the rules apply to me as well. I slowly made my way next to him careful as to not touch him, even brush against him. He turned towards me and scowled. If it was any other sane woman she would have run away long time ago but I was insane. Insanely in love. "Douwannadivorce?"

He looked at me confusedly. Oh, I was too fast, "Do you want a divorce?" I repeated slowly and clearly.

He laughed manically and repeated, "Divorce?"

He kept laughing...he suddenly froze and his lips rested in a cunning smile. "I don't want to divorce you and let you go so quickly for what you did..."

I was confused. "What did I do?"

"You said okay to this marriage. You spoiled my life. You are the one my parents preferred over her. Over my Jessica"

So there was another girl. I suddenly felt a pang of jealousy hit me. I slowly said," I never knew. I'm sorry."

"I will never forgive you. I know it wasn't your fault but I just like assuming it is. I am going to hurt you until it destroys you completely like leaving Jessica destroyed me. Because of you she left me and she married an asshole. I should be with 'her' not with you!" he spat the last three words.

"But I'm sorry! Please just try to let go of the past. Maybe you might like this life with me...maybe the arranged marriage wouldn't be as bad as you thought?

He laughed again. "This marriage is already worse than what I thought it would be. You and I are never going to be together. How many times do I have to tell you?"

"What if I'm better than Jessica?"

His eyes darkened immediately and he pushed me against the closed window. "Say that again and I will make sure you wished you were never born!"

'Oh boy!' said my mind voice.

Author's Note: heyo!!!! How is it so far? Like it? Please comment and vote!!!! Don't be so quiet!!! Tell me what you think about this story!!!! I need feedback people come on!!! Please please please? Love you all...essy <3