Finding My Husband's Heart

Chapter 41: This isn't a date.

Sarah's POV

The bell rang as I hurriedly fixed my hair. My nerves were on the edge since I replied to Keith's message. I was starting to wonder if he would turn up... I rushed downstairs and Jeremy had already opened the door. I paused in front of Keith and looked at him. He looked crest-fallen. He eyes travelled from me and to Jeremy and his gaze fell down. Wait? Did he think something was happening between us? I looked down at his hands and he was holding flowers. Probably meant for someone.

You

My subconscious screamed at me.

I pushed it away and looked at Keith and invited him in. Jeremy moved away letting him in as well. He gave me the flowers and smiled sadly. I didn't feel sorry for him at all because it hurt me like hell seeing him with a girl who was naked and besides Jeremy and I were just friends. I know I'm being bitchy but I can't help it, it's not like I was seen naked with Jeremy. Ew, even that thought was gross.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" came a terrifying shriek.

Uh oh Lily!

She knew the entire story and as my best ever best friend she just wanted to rip Keith's throat off.

Keith looked taken aback. Lily came marching forwards and slapped him right across his face. Jeremy ran out of the room into the kitchen. I held Lily back when Keith looked shocked. He clenched his jaw and he looked pissed.

"How could you hurt her?" Lily shouted.

He looked at his feet in shame. Uh oh. I dint tell her about what happened over the vacation and about his scars. He didn't dare look up. He wasn't pissed anymore. I could only see one thing in his eyes as he looked back up at us. Regret. Just pure regret for whatever he did. I pulled Lily back away from him while he gazed at his shoes without defending himself from Lily's harsh words. I quickly whispered to her about everything that happened during the vacation and her eyes widened in shock.

"But Sar! You can't forgive him so easily!" She exclaimed.

"I haven't Lily."

"Well then, send him away."

"I just want to build something between us but at the same time I haven't forgiven him. I'm confused."

"Well then, just see what he wants and if he as much shows a hint of being like how he was in the past I want you to walk away and even maybe give him a good kick in the arse before you do. Am I clear?"

I nodded. I wanted to see if there was a slightest chance. I hate him for abusing me. I hate him for giving me hell but at the same time I thought of his glistening eyes when he showed me his scars, his passionate kiss and his caring nature when he made sure I didn't freak out in the plane. Who was he? Which Keith should I see? As much as I felt like walking away after he told me he wanted to try and hurting him so that he could be hurt for everything he did to me. That wouldn't give me peace. It wouldn't make me forget him. I hate him and I like him and I don't want to be with him too soon either. My mind was in a whirl wind as I walked back closer to Keith, praying to god that he hadn't heard what Lily and I were talking about. Jeremy had returned with a bowl of popcorn.

"What did I miss?" he asked while sitting on the couch.

"What's the popcorn for?" Lily asked him as the TV was turned off.

"The drama." He simply said pointing at mine and Keith's direction. I walked over and smacked him in his head while Lily was laughing her ass off. Keith simply looked amused seeing us like this. I have never seen him behave like us. He was too 'proper'. Slightly embarrassed at the way we were acting in front of him I got up from the couch and walked over to him.

"Are those for me?" I asked him nodding at the flowers.

"Er..yes. I'm sorry I completely forgot." He said handing me the flowers.

I took them. "Thank you." I said and I smelt them. They were still fresh.

"Why did you want to see me?" I asked him directly.

"Do you want to go have lunch together?" he asked me.

I was taken aback. Wasn't it too fast to move on from what he did and just go out places with him especially when I couldn't place him anywhere. My feelings were two sided. It wasn't safe to go out with him until I'm sure I can trust him again with my heart.

As if he knew what was running on my mind. He said, "As just two adults. I don't know you, you don't know me. This isn't a date. Just lunch." He said in a rush clearly afraid I was going to say no.

I looked over at Lily to see what she thought and she slightly nodded and gave me a look that said, 'how else are going to judge him'?

I looked back at Keith who was looking very hopefully at me. I nodded simply indicating I agreed to his offer.

"Just lunch." I repeated. He nodded enthusiastically.

"Yes. Yes." He said and gestured me to lead the way. I wasn't expecting the respect but it felt good to be respected. I walked out the front door and felt him close behind me. I turned around and he was so close that our noses were almost touching. I backed away almost immediately and I fell as as I reached the end of the step. His amazingly fast reflexes helped him grab my waist and hold me close to him before I fell.

I hurriedly broke eye contact before I started blushing and stepped away from him carefully. Once we were on the drive way, I turned to face him again and said, "Don't stand too close. I don't like it."

"Why do I make you uncomfortable?" he asked while giving a smirk.

Butterflies erupted within and were not only there in my stomach but all over. Well at least that's how I felt. I guess he knew how I felt at that moment as his grin grew wider.

I didn't want him to win so easily. "Yes uncomfortable but not in a good way." The moment it escaped my lips I felt guilty but I thought of the times when so many harsh words and even worse actions hurt me. I needed to find reasons to trust him. I needed to see if he'll give up on me and just find another girl like he did that night at the ball or if he'll fight till he proves himself to me that he really wants me and not to treat me the way he did before but as wife with respect.

He looked shocked. His jaw tightened and his eyes were downcast. He kept his distance from me from then on. We reached his black Gallardo and I asked him, "So where are you taking me?"

"It's a surprise. You'll see." He said while grinning. While looking at him smile, I realized, as much as I was testing him I hoped I wasn't going to be the one to fail and fall for him.

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