Chapter 12:
Control
I know Cherry and Jerry told me I should be alone but that's the worst mistake I've ever made. My whole world looked like it was gonna shatter any second and at this point I felt like I was probably done for.
I thought that this might actually be the end and I should say my last goodbyes to them. I need them to know that the real me loves them.
I flew all the way to their apartment and bravely knocked on the door, preparing myself for whatever reaction I might get from them even looking at me now.
When they first opened the door. I saw Cherry covered her mouth in shock. "Clarisse?" She asked hesitantly. "Yeah. It's Clarisse...Or whatever's left of me" I answered sadly. "W-What happened? What's wrong with you?" She asked and I could tell she was scared. I would be scared too if I saw myself at this state. "I-I just couldn't. I can't control myself" I answered. "I don't understand. When I first saw you I noticed you were happier but why is that not happening?" She asked more concerned "I just don't know. Okay. I'm scared and whatever lives in me is now growing stronger" I answered while my voice sounded like it was choked with my sadness. "Oh Clarisse" She said coming closer to hug me. "No stop! Please. I don't want you to come closer" I said painfully rejecting her hug. "Clarisse. It's okay" She told me "No please. I don't want you to suffer. It's not okay. Who knows what could happen. What if I hurt you?" I said in an affrighted tone "I know you'd never hurt me" She said giving me a calm smile. I sighed sadly and finally decided to tell her why I came to her "Cherry. This thing inside of me called Blurryface. I don't think I can fight it anymore" I said while my voice cracked with sorrow. "This is why. I want to spend my last days of sanity to be with you. Because I know I won't be the same afterwards, and after I'm gone. Please stay away from me" I explained. "Okay I understand" She said nodding.
We both walked. Because I wouldn't dare to get closer to her. Blurryface wanted her to take my place and I don't know if I should be grateful because she really did care or frightened because she'd actually do something like that for me.
I didn't really want to think about that because I only wanted to focus on seeing Cherry smile for the last time.
"So where are we going?" She asked. "We're going to the roof of my apartment. That place always seems to calm me down" I answered her. "That's a coincidence. I love staying on the roof" She said happily. "Yeah. There's always something that made me love heights. I've been climbing things for a long time and I really love it. It just makes me feel alive" I added. She smiled at me for sharing my memories with her. I bet she knew that I don't tell this to anyone.
After we walked up the stairs to the roof. We both panted and stretched because we were both extremely exhausted. We wouldn't have been this tired if I carried her and flew to the roof, but I'm definitely not taking any chances.
As we both stood. I kinda flinched just looking at my shadow. Cherry noticed me flinch and asked "Are you okay? You seem kinda of jumpy" "I don't know I'm just getting these crazy visions and temptations and sometimes I swear I can see Blurryface in my shadows" I answered.
We both sighed and we sat down on the edge of the building.
I looked at Cherry. My Cherry. So beautiful and she looks calm. She never left even she knew the evil that lived inside me. If I didn't have Blurryface. I think I'd probably marry her. I'd let her move in with me and we'll make music together. I could take her to the forest one day and just forget about the world.
"That will never happen" I heard it say to me. I began to look around because this voice didn't sound like it was in my head. I looked around and right next to me I saw Cherry's head twitch and I swear I saw a glimpse of her with red eyes. I backed off and quickly stood up and backed away "No not you Cherry!" I yelled. "What are you talking about Clarisse?" She asked me confused "Blurryface has taken over you too" I said close to tears. "Clarisse no it hasn't. Please trust me. Its me Cherry" She pleaded. "Cherry. Stay away from me! Blurryface is coming. Go protect yourself" I commanded her and ran the other way. My eyes teared up with pain and I felt too choked to breathe right. My head began to hurt and I knew now that I'm no longer in control. I opened my eyes and saw myself through the eyes of Blurryface.
My heart immediately dropped the moment I opened my eyes.
It's because I saw Cherry standing still in front of me.
I tried to scream. I screamed at the top of my lungs but she couldn't hear me. How would she anyways?
"Clarisse?" She asked "No. Clarisse isn't here, and she'll never be here" It answered her. "No. Stay back!" She said taking a step backwards. "Don't you see? This is the only way I can exist. By getting rid of you" He smirked and took a step forward "Clarisse. I know you're in there, and if you're watching me. Come save me" She said boldly and I felt like she was looking straight into my eyes.
That's when I watched what she was about to do. I saw her lean back at the edge of the building and fall. I screamed just realizing what she just did. I was so scared that I instantly got back in control and I jumped down to rescue her. She was close to the ground but I knew I could make it.
At this moment the first emotions I felt just struck me. I now had her tightly wrapped around my arms and I kept apologizing over and over again and she calmed me down by simply embracing me tighter "I knew you were still in there" She whispered. "I had to. I just had to save you" I said while my eyes filled up with tears.
I landed by my apartment and I just felt guilt inside myself because I could've been the reason to Cherry's death "Hey I'll sleep over at you place today" She said. "No no that's a bad idea Cherry. I nearly killed you today and you shouldn't be anywhere near me" I said denying her request. "You didn't nearly kill me. Blurryface did, but you, you saved me Clarisse. Again. So please let me help you" She said. I couldn't refuse. I didn't want to disappoint her so I just accepted. I could tell she was too happy when I accepted. She got too excited that she jumped and hugged me. I was about to freak out but when I looked at her shoulder where I placed my arm. The darkness from my skin was transferred to hers but it disappeared the minute it got on her.
I wasn't afraid to get near her and she was never afraid to get near me. She held my hand and we headed inside to end our day.
-Authors Note-
Hello!! I'm so glad that I could publish this chapter as early as possible
And hey I actually didn't publish it 2-3 weeks late.
Also I'm so close to finishing this fanfic
And all of you are so close to finding out the ending. Heheh.
Also I've just added songs to each chapter because I just realized you could do this XD so you can kinda link the story to the Blurryface album well I think it worked(?)
Okay? Alright
XO Latifa
