My Bully~ Calum Hood

40.

We drove in silence for a while, it was tense. All the memories from high school were dancing around in my head as I looked out the window.

Calum looked upset, he wasn't singing to the radio like he always does. His fingers weren't even tapping to the beat on the steering wheel.

"I really wanted them to like me." Calum said once we were halfway back to school. When I looked over at him he was frowning. I was still shaking a bit from crying so hard but I managed to lay my hand on his knee for reassurance.

"I know, I'm really sorry." I choked out. I felt my eyes watering for the second time tonight.

I wanted them to like him too, I didn't even think about high school. After my dad had talked about Calum I started to get nervous.

We were almost to the dorms now and still there wasn't any noise in the car. Calum had turned the radio off when he started talking so now we just sat in silence. I was looking out the window as we drove by, thinking about high school and my future.

My dad didn't know what he was talking about, sure Cal has hurt me in the past. He changed. He's definitely not the same person he was. I wasn't nervous anymore around him, in fact he's helped me a lot.

My dad wouldn't stop me from being with someone who made me happy, I wouldn't let him. I really liked Calum... like a lot.

"C-can I maybe stay at your place tonight?" I asked, breaking the silence. He looked surprised. I guess he thought I would hate him just because my dad does.

"Um yeah, yeah ok. Michael should be out." He replied, I could see a slight smile tug at his lips which made me smile.

I've never slept at Calum's dorm, I've only really been there once. I was excited for a change.

When we finally got to the dorms he parked his car as close to the school as he could. It was only November but it was freezing out. I hated the cold and didn't have a jacket. Neither did Calum do he couldn't do the cliché "give me his jacket" thing.

He found a place and hurried around to my side of the car to open the door for me. When I stepped out he instantly engulfed me in his arms, I guess to keep me warm. It worked and we walked the whole way inside like that.

I welcomed the warm air inside the building, I practically moaned because of how good it felt. Calum giggled quietly before leading the way to his dorm.

Our school divides dorms for girls and boys so we walked past quite a few people. Of course there was the occasional girl walking with her boyfriend like I was but they all seemed bitchy.

He stopped in front of a door and pulled his key out of this pocket. Once the door was unlocked he stepped inside and welcomes me in too.

I smiled as I took in my surrounding. The walls were covered in band posters, all different bands and groups. There was a lot of Green Day, Blink-182, and Good Charlotte.

The floor was littered with cloths and trash and just about everything. I was a very clean person but for some reason I found all of this cute. Call me crazy.

Calum looked around his room in panic and instantly started trying to clean up. He kept muttering sorries as he passed me with a pile of stuff.

"This must have been Michael's stuff, he always forgets to pick up." He lies. I laughed at him and tried to stop him from cleaning anymore.

"Stop, Cal it's fine I really don't mind. You're probably exhausted lets just go to bed." I said with a small smile which he returned. He dramatically dropped the pile of cloths he was holding and ran over to the bed.

He tucked himself in and opened up the covers for me to get in. I giggled a little before climbing in after him. His arms instantly wrapped around me as he pulled me closer to him.

I still had all my cloths on but for some reason I was comfortable... very comfortable. His warm breath kept hitting the back of my neck and I felt my eyes start to close.

"I regret ever hurting you." He mumbled after a while of silence. I let out a deep breath and turned to face him.

"I know, you know I forgive you right." I reply, looking him in the eyes.

"That doesn't mean I've forgiven myself, I think about it everyday." His whole face instantly looked sadder. I didn't want to admit it but I could feel my eyes water.

"Don't, I really have forgiven you." Thats all I can get out. I start to shake slightly as I tear up. His hand reaches up to wipe away a tear I didn't even realize had fallen. Trust me, I didn't want to be crying again.

"No baby please don't cry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I ruin everything." He mutters. I could hear the self-hatred behind his words and it made me want to cry harder.

"You don't ruin everything." I say quietly. He looked at me for a while before saying anything.

"Yes, Yes I do. I hurt you for years and now I made your dad hate me. I'm a dick, why do you even stay with me." His eyes glimmer with water and I can tell he's about to cry too.

"Because I love you." I say simply. Yes that was the first time I've ever said it.

He looked up at me with a shocked expression, I could tell he wasn't expecting that. His hands reached up to my cheeks and he began to lightly run circles in them. Suddenly his mouth was against mine in a passionate, slow, beautiful kiss.

"I love you." He replied once he had pulled away.

The rest of the night consisted of him playing with my hair and smiling at me. I was dozing off, too tired to keep my eyes open.

"Goodnight, I love you." Was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.