Breath

Learn to Swim

Written with lovatolovesmugs_

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The water is rising

The air leaves my lungs
The world becomes a distant memory

On the other side of the glass
I see smiles
I hear laughs

But I'm trapped
Inside this glass box

That is my life

I'm drowning but I won't die

The water fills my throat—
Why am I forced to breathe?

I want the darkness to consume me
But they're shoving light down my throat

I don't want this;
But who does?

Living a life
That's not for me

No decisions
No freedom
No will

Not anymore

You brought me here
Gave me life
Cooked my food
Gave me shelter

But for what?

To leave
And take my heart with you?

You pretended you cared
But I was always last.

You never wanted me
But I wanted you.

I was a bother,
You said that, remember?

That it would all be better
To just let me die.

Yet you still pretended.
But why?

To keep me here,
Against my will
In my private hell,
For what?

So that guilt wouldn't consume you,
Like sadness consumes me?

Selfish.
Pathetic.
Unfair.

You never bothered,
Why?
What did I do?

You didn't wanna listen,
You never do.

Are you afraid?
Afraid to know it's you?
It's all you!

The knife in my chest,
You stabbed me!

Slow,
Painful,
No empathy,
No life in your eyes,

But in the end,
There was no life left in me.

And now I'm like you—
Just like you.

Cold,
Heartless,
Fake,
Sinful,
A monster!

Just like you.

You're the reason I'm drowning.

You pushed me in,
Held me down,
And softly whispered:

"Learn to swim"