Easton made me dress up for the court date. I didnt want to because thats not me, but whatever i can do for my kids. I sat on my side of the court room, with Chris, Gordie, Easton, Vern, Teddy, and Dally. Soda had the other boys. I glared at Pony. He gave me the 'hes my brother' look. I dont understand why Soda would do this. This isnt him. The only reason Soda would do this is to hurt me. Soda also had a lot of socs on his side. Darry, Steve, Two-Bit, Johnny, and Pony didnt look too happy with that. I never thought at seventeen i would have to go through this.
I sat quietly waiting for it to start. The judge used the gavel to quiet the room. "Alright. We have the case of O' Conner and Curtis. This is over custody of kids Patrick and Austin Curtis. Lets start the case. Ms. O' Conner. You are first", the judge said.
I stood up shakily. It was visible how much i was shaking. I wasnt good with crowds or speaking in front of people. I went up to the stands waiting for Sodas lawyer to question me. He came up. He was well dressed and looked presentable. He must have cost a great deal of money for his service. I couldnt afford a lawyer. I could barely afford the outfit im wearing. I was appointed a free one. She hadnt even showed up yet.
I waited nervously, tapping my foot on the floor. He approached me, making me even more nervous. "Ms. O' Conner, why are we here today?", he asked. "To figure out custody agreements of my sons", i answered. "But are they just your sons?" "Obviously not. It takes two people to make a baby." "Thats right. Which means Mr. Curtis here is the father. Dont you think kids need a father?" "Not nessacarily. If a kids father isnt good enough or doesnt want them, then he should not be apart of their life." "What about a mother? Should a mother be in a childs life?" "Yes. They carried the baby for nine months. They wouldnt of kept the baby if they didnt want it. They have a special connection with the baby."
"Thats enough judge", the lawyer finished. I dont understand how that helped him, but whatever. Then Soda went up to the stand, but my lawyer still wasnt here. "Ms. O ' Conner, when is your lawyer getting here?", the judge asked. "I dont know?", i answered. "Well i have no time for this. My kid is the lead in a school play. Court adjourned. I go with Mr. Curtis because Ms. O' Conner did not have the nessacary requirements to fulfill the case. I give Mr. Curtis custody of Patrick and Ms. O' Conner Austin", the judge smacked his gavel on the table and left to his chambers.
I felt the tears fil my eyes and came out. I sat there silently crying. Easton had fury in his eyes. He left the court room before he could get himself in trouble. Chris and the other guys tried to comfort me, but i couldnt handle it. There is nothing that could make anyone feel more lost than being seventeen years old, having twins, and not having custody over them. Im a good mother. I dont think i deserved this, for what i have been through. I couldnt move. I was paralyzed with sadness. Chris picked me up and carried me out. I burried my head in his chest, not wanting anyone to see the shame on my face. I obviously didnt try hard enough to keep my kids.
Sodas pov
I pumped my fists in victory. I won. I would go pick up the boys later. My boys. I won. This is now my chance to get her back. Then i look over at her. She is sitting there silently, tears pouring down her face, face emotionless. I watch that Chris guy pick her up and carry her away. She buries her head in his chest. I feel a pang of jealousy.
That should have been me. But i screwed up. I screwed up many times, but this was the last straw. She will never take me back. She probably will never look at me. I look at the boys. They all scowl at me, but Darry. He just looked disappointed. I knew i messed up. I shouldnt have done that. It wasnt nessacary. If i didnt constantly get jealous, i would never lose her. I was lucky to even get her back all the times i messed up. I won, but i also lost big time.
