Falling up

Cant get rid of me

The pain; of the sweet pain of my fall to death.

The pain of leaving life as I knew it.

But it well all be worth it in the end, I was sure of it.

But was I sure of leaving the guys?

Leaving my family?

Was I sure of leaving it all?

I was sure of nothing but the blackness and the terrible pain.

With a sharp pain to my heart a bright light shined and I was faced at the doors of- heaven?

(A/N I am a Christian so ya..)

And there stood before me, God?

"Hello there young one." He said smiling at me.

I flashed a weak smile still suprized at the events that have happened today.

"Spencer, aren't you a little young to

Be up here?" He said worringly.

"I mean, I guess so." I said shrugging.

"Your parents wouldn't want this. Tyler-,"

"Please leave my parents out of this." I said interrupting him.

" What about Tyler?" God said sending me a questioning look.

"Tyler is dead." I mumbled crossing my arms over my chest.

"You know very well that Tyler is far from dead. He is in your heart and just because he's not physically here dosent mean that he's not alive in your heart." God said looking at me in the eye.

"Just because your physically here dosent mean that your right." I snarled back.

Like litterly I proboly sounded like a dog.

"Tyler got killed saving you Spencer. But with the way your acting I couldn't imagine why. Who raised this kid after I died!?" The all too familiar voice boomed from behind me.

I jumped from the sudden outburst and turned around.

"Daddy?" I questioned in a small voice.

And there stood behind him was Tyler and my mother, my little sister, along with the young version of Jake.

"Spencer?" Tyler gasped fully shocked.

I didn't respond instead I was too amazed by the sighing of my whole family.

"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be back on earth." My mother practically yelled.

"Spencer, you didn't." My mom said firmly after I didn't respond.

I didn't answer again, I knew my mom would be mad she clearly told me to stop.

"Spencer Carly Williams, you get your life back on track right now." My father grumbled.

My dad always wanted this perfect American daughter, for which I was not.

Of corse I still loved him and all but he was still strict.

"Spencer I saved you because I knew you would turn out to be someone amazing. I knew you had true talent. Just because of what happend-" Tyler started to say but of corse I cut him off.

"Tyler do you know what happened after you died?"

I didn't wait for an answer but instead continued.

"I was abused, starved, and raped. I lived in a dirty room filled with drugs and empty beer bottles for 6 months. The man whipped me and killed Rosie! Did you expect me not to change after that or something!" I said almost yelling.

"Spencer remember what I used to say all the time?" Tyler asked me his eyebrow concentrating.

I shook my head letting a single year fall down my face.

"You fall to get back up again. And that's exactly what your going to do. Your going to get back up and be that happy little 7 year old spencer I remember. Be happy again. For me , for mom, dad, jake, Rosie. For

Everyone. Be you that's all we could

Ever ask for." Tyler said fading away along with the rest of my family.

I turned back forward and faced God.

"I'm ready." I said giving him a half hearted smile.

--

So now I'm 'coming back to life' as

God had put it.

He's doing something- I don't know what because my eyes are closed.

"Be strong,

Be brave ,

Be you.

Believe in yourself and you'll find a way." God told me, before a rush of white surrounded me and then it

Turned black.

The darkness lightened and I opened my eyes and breathe in the smell of- a

Hospital?

Oh God how you know I hate hospitals.

I saw a blonde head of hair with his head in his hands.

"Niall?" I asked, finding my voice.

He flew his head up and looked ate

In shock.

He jumped up from his position on the chair and wrapped me in a Horan hug.

"I though I lost you." He whispered in my ear.

"You can't get rid of me that easily Leprechaun." I said smiling through the hug.