Falling up

Complete and utter darkness

"Spencer, there's one thing I don't understand. Why did you do it?" Louis said entering the room and sitting on the bed opposite of me.

Why did I do it, spur of the moment of Did I really want to kill myself?

"I guess I don't know, and I guess I well never be sure. But all I know is now that it always feels like an option. But I want to get better." I said honestly leaning against Niall.

"Was..was it because of me?" Louis said looking at me straight in the eye.

I didn't respond, but instead locked my eyes on the floor looking at al the patterns of the wood.

"So, you tried to kill yourself- because of me" he said completed shocked in a small voice.

"Louis-"

"No! Don't try to make me feel better. I made you try to kill yourself." He said-or almost yelled back to me.

He reached into his pocket and pulled out a- a knife.

Placing the blade above his heart he positioned it so if he punched himself with it- we were to be dead immidetly.

"Louis, put down the knife." I chocked out standing up ready to grab the knife.

"No- you suffered, so I well suffer too. So I know your pain." He said positioning the knife closer.

He had a good foot of room between him and the knife, and I could tell her was certain to do this.

He shoved the knife forward and hit himself- or he though.

I had- for some reason- from my position 2 feet away jumped in front of the knife.

It hit me in the same spot it would of hit him.

I could be dead, for real this time.

Blood filled my lungs and I chocked it up grabbing my stomach in hope of relief from the pain.

"Call am ambulance.." Was the final thing I heard before every part of me shut down and I went Into complete darkness, for good.

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