Falling up

sorry

"I'm sorry.." i mumbled before running into the flat.

well i had no where else to go.

I opened the thingy- remembering that it needed to be opened- and walked in to see 3 other people looking at me sitting on a thingy.

"Umm- hi?" i said slighty waving my hand un-sure of what to do.

"Spencer? Wheres Niall?" a guy with brown hair said. He's the one from my bad dreams.

"No! Get away from me..NIALL." I yelled backing away.

Niall ran through the door looking around at what was wrong.

"He's the one in my night mares." I said hiding behind him and pointing at the one with brown hair again.

"Sweetie, thats just Louis. He's not going to hurt you. The other with the hair standing up is Zayn and next to him is Liam. Liam gave you the necklace your wearing." Niall said pointing at each person while saying their names.

I stayed silent behind Niall.

He finally pulled me out from behind him and made me look at everyone.

"There your best friends Spencer. Why cant you just fucking remember." Niall said face palming himself.

I stepped away from him due to his sudden out burst.

"Well I'm sorry i dont remember anything Niall. Do you know how hard it is for me? trying to remember everything, yet I keep dissapointing you. Well guess what I'm tired of falling. Everytime i think I'm doing something right, I fall again. And you know the hardest part? I cant seem to get back up." I said fuming with anger.

He tried to grab my arm but I pulled my arm away and it hit something, it falling on the floor and shattering into peices.

"I'm so-sorry." I said back away a little.

"It's okay Spencer, accidents happen. I'll clean it up." The one who I think was named Zayn said.

Zayn left the room and came back with a dust pan and a stick with grass on the end. (broom)

"Here, I'll help you" I said bending down and grabbing the peices of the object in my hand.

"No- Spencer thats glass it's sharp" Liam said from behind me.

I felt a sharp pain in my hand and i dropped this so called 'glass' from my hand.

Looking down at my hand I saw that it was red and I had cuts everywhere.

"I- I didnt know." I cried tears falling down my face.

"I'm sorry I've been such a burden. I'm sorry that I didnt know any ones of your names. But whats the hardest to understand- is that I'm suppost to be able to remember important people in my life. I guess none of you are that important to me cause i barley remember anything." I said standing up and slowly walking towards the door.

"Spencer. You well remember" Zayn said wrapping me in a hug.