Falling up

The end of me

-Louis POV-

Today was it. Today was the day when I said good bye to Spencer forever.

The guys and myself were in the car headed to the cemetery. Where Spencer's lifeless dead body would be placed in the cold hard ground to rot inside of a coffin.

Why did she have to go. Why didn't she tell me. I loved her.

The boys and I were all seated inside a black limo, being transported by Paul- to the cemetery.

We were all decked out in Black suits, and flowers were placed beside each of us that would later go infront of her gray, gravestone.

I never had the chance to say goodbye, or to say how much I love her. Never again may I have that chance, but I promised myself that what happened is for the better.

Spencer is happier up where ever she is, she can be with her old dog Jake, be happy, living her life, hopefully looking down on the boys and I to make sure we live out our lives happy and safe.

"Louis were here." I heard Harry's weak voice say.

I looked over to meet his eyes, and saw the puffy redness underneath and his pink tinted nose.

Giving Harry a small half hearted smile I climbed out of the limo and into the slightly chilly fall air.

As we walked over to where her grave was going to be, we saw the casket where her dead body lay. There was a deep pit where the casket would soon be laid.

As we approached, we saw that there was Aldready family members and friends of Spencer's there.

The guys and I joined the crowd, and I instinctively gripped hands with Harry, the one who I was closet to in the band, for the emotional support I knew I would need.

The funeral began a moment later and the emotional roller coaster began.

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"Harry, what's going to happen now?" I asked as they covered the last of her coffin with the brown moist dirt.

My eyes were puffy my voice was weak and scratchy and quite frankly I was lost.

"We are going to continue to pursue our careers. Continue to die everything we did before but carry Spencer's amazing spirit with us to help us." He said meeting my eyes.

He managed a small crooked smile but with my love gone i could barley manage laughing.

I nodded for his response and we walked away from the grave, away from the lovely girl I grew to love.

THE END.

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This is a horrible ending but I well be doing an epilogue. For those of You who are like why does every one direction story have to have self harm in it?

My anwser;

Each character replicates somethif different.

Spencer: the battle inside you. at times it's good to have something encouraging you, making you take risks but sometimes that battle inside you hurts and you have to kill it one way or another.

Louis: the love that people carry for you, no matter what you do their love is eternal .

All the others: continuous support and love even through all the bad things you've done in class and to others people always forgive and well continue to love.

I hope you all enjoyed this horrible book, now begins the longgg editing process, the book well probably be dramatically changed so in a few months come read it again and devours better writing.

I love you and all thank you for following em through this series.

Enjoy. And remember to stay strong.