Ricky's POV: I was broken as I left Ariana in her dressing room. I love her, I really do but I need to take everything in and just find some peace with myself. I made my way outside and into the car. There was a waterfall hide here in Boca that not a lot of people knew about and I go there every time I needed to think and just get away when I was younger. As I looked at the water fall I could only think of Ariana and Tom, my dad. I wouldn't dare to call that prick my father. I'm filled with disgust and disappointment in him. I feel so bad for Ariana and everything she's been through. Not telling anyone all these years. Tears started to fall as I took this all in. After about an hour of thinking, I got up and went home. When I got there no one was there. I went upstairs to my room and started to pack my stuff to go to NYC. Our next tour show was in Madison Square Garden and the crew and myself were leaving soon. After preparing for our next destination, I went to the hotel where we were staying and went to room 268. "Hey guys!" I said forcing a smile on my face.
"Hey Buddy." They said. "I heard what happened, are you okay? Ugh dumb question of course your not." Brian asked.
"We are going to make you forget about what happened, we don't want you all down while your with us." Griffen said. "Yea. look tonight we have a mini photo shoot just for us and its going to be fun." Jimmy said packing his stuff.
I smiled a little at how good friends I had and how much they cared. "Thanks guys" I said. "No problema." Scott said in a funny way. I just laughed. I was feeling better already.
"What do you do with a stick boat" Joesar asked. We looked at each other. " We don't know.." I said answering for the rest of us. "Take it to the doc!"
He Bursted out laughing. We all laughed too at Jimmy's dumb joke. "okay okay i got one, What did the big bucket say to the little bucket?" Brian asked. "hey down there?" I asked unsure.
"Nope, he said You look a little pail!" he snorted. I was now crying from all the laughter. The corny jokes sucked ass but the way everyone laughed and made hand motions were hilarious. When everyone was finished packing we started to leave the room. I decided to say one more joke.
"Why did the rapper carry an umbrella?" They were all clueless so I so I helped them out. "Fo' drizzle." Everyone laughed and we made our way outside the hotel. The crew was my second family, they always made things fun and made me smile.
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We got to the photo shoot place and got ready. It was about an hour and half because we were fooling around and making goofy faces in the pictures. When we were all done we went on the bus and made our way to NYC. As I was hearing J. Coles new album and finding inner peace, the bus started making weird sounds and then it just stops moving and the air was filled with a burning smell. We got off the bus to see what was happening. " what the ass was that?" Nekai asked. That's what was on everyone's mind. It turned out some weird shit stopped working and now we were stuck in the middle of Florida with no A/C and it's fucking hot. The driver, Bob called his friends auto shop and said that they would be here in a few minutes because it's near by. The crew and I found shade and we fanned ourselves. We joked, hung out and drank lots of water until the auto shop guy came and fixed the bus. "Thank god its fixed. " Brian said putting his face in one of the openings to the A/C. We laughed at him. I then got back on the bus and layer down on one of the bunk beds. I layer down and just thought of the piece of shit dad I have.
We finally got to NYC, a few minutes late but we arrived. As i got off the bus there she was, smiling an laughing with the Arianators that were outside. She was so beautiful, and harmless. I smiled while i was checking her out. I truly did miss her. Not spending time with Ariana hurt me. She was basically the love of my life. But I was going through a dark and non happy path that I didn't want her going down with me. She needs to focus on her career, not me and how I'm feeling. I care too much about Ariana to make her go through what I'm going through right now. She smiled and blushed walking into the hotel. If we were still together right now I would be going up there with her in her bedroom and we would cuddle. But once my feelings are on a good and healthy path, we'll be right back together in no time.
