I Don't Love You [[GERARD WAY FANFIC]]

All These Things That I've Done

-Gerard's POV-

Angry wasn't even the right word to describe how I felt in that moment.

I was fucking livid.

I stood up and kicked the chair I had been sitting in backwards, surprising Frank who had been standing next to me.

"HOW DARE YOU!" I screamed, slamming my fists on the table, shaking the computer screen. "HOW FUCKING DARE YOU, YOU MOTHER FUCKING SON OF A BITCH!" I picked my fists up and slammed them again against the table.

This was it. I'd officially fucking lost it.

He touched her.

He'd fucking done it.

I was the only angry one though; I could feel Frank holding in his pain as he looked at what was left of Anastasia and clenched his fists. I didn't have time to worry about Frank though.

"WHAT HAPPENED HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH HER! THAT WAS THREE YEARS AGO YOU BASTARD!" I just continued to yell, but it didn't make me feel any better. I was blinded with pure and utter range, and all I could do was sit here and look at her.

Look at her bleed.

Look at her hurt.

Why was it only infuriating when it was someone else doing this to her?

Lee's wicked grin only grew as he stood there with Anastasia in his arms, her stomach still exposed. Her eyes were squeezed shut now, and she flinched every time I yelled.

"Yes Gerard, that was three years ago, but you seem to forget that it wasn't only my brother you took from me that night." Lee started cruelly, still holding onto Anastasia's hair. "You burned my supply and most of my money. You killed my only good and trustworthy men. I lost all my fucking business after word got out about your little stunt against me! I had nothing! And that-that's when I realized that you'd taken my world from me Gerard. You took my friends. You took my brother. And now-" he stopped as he put his hand on Anastasia's stomach, causing her to cringe as he traced circles on her bloodied and scanned abdomen. "I finally found something that meant the world to you Gerard." Lee smiled, amused at his own game, as he looked me straight in the eyes. "And do you know what men like me do to things that others hold precious?" He twisted Anastasia's head so that she was looking directly at the camera. Lee's actions had caused her to open her eyes...

Those green eyes...

They weren't the eyes I'd first seen on the sassy girl that had tried to beat me with a tennis racket...

They were the eyes of a girl who was never going to be the same again...

After all, there's only so much pain a human can endure before they realize that emotions weren't really worth it.

Anastasia had been the one to convince me that this wasn't true though. Humans were designed to love and be loved, do or die. I'd only realized that when it was too late...

"Men like me take what others love, and they burn it!" He widened his eyes and smiled. Anastasia began to shake her head, but he wasn't done. "Slowly" he finished glaring into my eyes, knowing that this was killing me. I wanted to punch a hole through Ray's computer. I wanted to punch a hole through anything. Lee was just dangling her in front of us and we couldn't do a fucking thing. I was angry, furious- I was confused and I just wanted the feelings to go away.

"THEN KILL HER!" I suddenly spat, surprising even myself. If he killed her, I wouldn't have these feelings, these weaknesses anymore...

No!