Breaking

Tired

i'm so tired

so excruciatingly tired

i want to sleep

forever

close my eyes and never open them again

but i'm awakened

it hurts

every second of it hurts 

and all i want is to go back

go back to my safe place

away from the noise and chaos

but i can't do that

nothing's that simple anymore

so instead i sit and cry in the corner

shielding myself from questions

before arising with dry eyes and plastic smiles

it's no longer about me.

keep them happy.

soon you can escape 

and let free the fire burning in your veins

sleep restlessly

chest heaving 

body screaming

everything hurts. 

wake up.

repeat.