Breaking

i don't learn

I didn't think it was real. The hysterical crying on the floor, clutching your stomach and gasping for air. You fucking broke me. What's this, the third time this year? Why can't I just understand how toxic you are? Maybe I just can't wrap my head around your contradictions. You loved me, now I'm dead to you. You made me promise to never leave you, you told me to let you be. You're leaving so it wouldn't work, she's staying but if you could you would be with her. You made it about age but you knew how old i was when we started. You made me hate something I can never change because I thought i wasn't good enough. All I wanted was you to love me. Instead you left me.