Matched with Harry falling for Niall

chapter 10 <3

the next few days were HELL for me, Harry blamed me for the miscarriage and he never let me forget that i killed his baby. i was upset aswell didn't he see that? i loved the baby and i was devestated. Zayn was told by Harry to stay well out of my way, Harry gave Zayn a few days off so i would have to do all the housework. everywhere i went he was in a bad mood, he would pour orange juice on my head and say 'That's for killing my baby' spitefully he would do lots of other things aswell. he was so pissed! he was annoyed that we had finally got a baby after a long time of trying and it had to be mucked up! I could hardly go anywhere without recieving a punch, kick or slap. i burst out crying most of the day.  i was sick of it. i told Niall and he gulped he said that it wasn't my fault he just said it wasn't meant to be and fate has a funny way of working out. Niall felt for me, he wanted to see me it had been so long i craved seeing him expecially after what had happened but Harry would no way in hell allow it to happen.

the worst thing for Harry was probably telling his friends Louis and Liam that there was no baby in the way ofcourse they were just like Harry and put the blame complely on me! Eleanor and Danielle (Liam's wife) were nicer they comforted me saying that there would be others...i hoped that there would be... or was i just not meant to be a mother? the one thing that Harry was desperate for me to be i couldn't do...why was life that? they reassured me that there would be others but i loved THIS baby i was upset for THIS baby who was only less than a month old. poor helpless baby who was stuck with me as a carrier. 

I was so excited for Zayn's birthday party but now i knew that it would be suicide even attempting to go, i sighed it was the one thing i was really looking forward to. i tried to stay out of Harry's way but he always found me when he was in the mood for hurting me which was a frequent mood swing. he would find me whimpering in the corner of a room begging him not to hurt me. he would pull me by my hair with the tighest grip and beat me up then leave.

Finally Zayn came back to work the day before his party, he was devestated when i told him i was too scared to come.

'He'll really kill me if he found out, it;s not worth it i really want to celebrate i really do,' i said almost in tears. i wanted to go it was so annoying that i had to be trapped in this hell hole. 

'I understand,' Zayn said quietly 'I feel so sorry for you, i know everyone is blaming you for the miscarriage but i know it's not your fault it couldn't have been prevented it's just one of those things,' 

i nodded my head 'thank you Zayn,' 

'He's really been angry hasn't he?' Zayn said inspecting my badly bruised face

'Yep i fear when he rreturns through that door, i'm his personal punching bag and i have to accept every punch, he's a git,'' I said

'Yes he is he is a monster! no man should ever treat a girl this way,' Zayn said ashamed 

then he said very quietly barely above a whisper, i could tell it was something that he wasn't supposed to say out loud but subconciously did. 'i could have prevented this,'

'what did you say?' i asked

'never mind,'

'Whoever you are matched with will be lucky,'  i said

Zayn smiled 'If i get matched,' he mumbled

'What did you say?' i asked

'never mind,' he smiled

i was confused as hell but i didn't dwell on it because my thoughts were interrupted by the door swinging open, i cringed at the sight of Harry. This meant danger for me.

i tried to slip away without being noticed but it didn't work. 

'Zayn go upstairs don't come downstairs till i tell you,' Harry smirked