Ordinary// Shawn Mendes

Chapter 21

SAM'S P.O.V.

Once Shawn and I returned from our adventure around New York it was 1:00 and our dinner reservations are at 7 so we have time. "What do you want to do? We have to leave at 6:30" Shawn told me. "Kinda want to take a nap and kinda want to shower." I told Shawn looking at my phone. "Take a shower now." Shawn told me, I was still looking at my phone. I was on Twitter looking at all the hate comments on the pictures fans took of Shawn and I today. //I MADE UP ALL THESE NAMES// @nowaymendes: Shawren is so much better. @shawnsteacup: She's so ugly why does he like her? and the worst of all. @Peacemendes: she's dating him just for the fame, she's too ugly, and she's annoying with all her tweets. I love Shawn and I'm not using him for fame. "What are you looking at Sam?" Shawn asked me peeking down at my phone. I turned it off really fast. "It's nothing." I told Shawn looking up at him putting on my best smile. "Samantha what is it." Shawn said yanking my phone out of my hand. He knows my password so there's so point now. "I'm gonna go take a shower." I told Shawn trying to avoid this topic. As I was walking away Shawn grabbed my hand. "Why do you read these?" Shawn said looking up, he seemed kinda hurt and I don't know why. "How do you not."
I told him. Shawn just sighed. "Why do you look so hurt?" I asked him. "Because it hurts me to see you hurt and I can't do anything about it because I can't tell off my fans so I'm always stuck sitting here. I want to help you." Shawn told me. "Please don't ever tell off your fans, it's just something I guess I'm gonna have to deal with." I said walking away to get in the shower. I'm tired of talking about this subject.

Once I was in the shower and about to finish up Shawn walked in the bathroom. "Are you still upset about this Samantha?" He asked. "Well yeah kinda." I replied. "Why? You usually don't let things like this get to you that much, why this time?" Shawn asked me again. "I've never got told 'that' before." I told him. "What's 'that'?" he asked me. I peeked my head out of the shower so I could give him eye contact. "That I'm using you for fame. That you and Lauren are better together." I told Shawn putting my head back in the shower to finish. Shawn just opened the shower door. "Really Samantha?" He said kinda pissed off. Neither of us cared if he saw me exposed I mean we both have already seen eachother. "Really Shawn." I replied. "I thought we were over the whole Lauren thing." Shawn said with hurt now in his eyes. "I can't help that I missed her." He said actually starting to tear up. "I am over that it's just that's not even the main thing that bothered me the whole using you for fame thing is more than Lauren." I said closing the shower door on him. "Well are you?" Shawn replied. "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?" I screamed opening the shower door. "WELL YOU WOULDNT CARE ABOUT IT IF IT WASNT TRUE!" Shawn screamed back. "SHAWN I DIDNT EVEN KNOW YOU WERE FAMOUS WHEN I FIRST MET YOU." I closed my eyes trying to calm myself down. "I worry about that because what if you look at that and be like 'Sams using me for fame I need to leave her' that's what I worry about." I explained starting to cry. "Samantha, you know I wouldn't assume that and not ask you about that." He told me. "Okay." I said finally calming down again. "Lauren are y-. Shit." Shawn said realizing what he said. "Get out." I said closing the door. "Sam I'm-" Shawn tried to talk. "I don't want to hear it, get out." I said again. "Sam let me explain."  I started crying. I didn't want him to explain. I peeked my head through the door. "Get out please, I'm not in the mood." I said slamming the shower door. I was now finished in the shower but I just took this to just sit and cry. Let it all of and cry. Scratch that. I bawled. Today's just been A Little Too Much.

SHAWNS P.O.V.

Once I walked out of the bathroom I heard Sam start to cry. Hard. I wanted to go in there and comfort her, but I knew that wouldn't do anything but anger her. So I went out and did something special for our dinner tonight. I'm still gonna make her go but I have a surprise that will hopefully make up for today. Once I returned Sam was still in the bathroom so I got on Twitter. "Fuck" I tweeted. I messed up, big time. I checked Sams Twitter, she tweeted two things and retweeted one. The retweet was Camila Cabellos tweeted saying "I think I miss you means more than I love you because you can love many people but only miss a few." And she tweeted "why do I even try anymore" and "some of the hate you all send is a lot more damaging than you all think." I choose to retweet that. Sam walked out of the bathroom with red puffy eyes and a towel around her. I grabbed her hand. "Can I explain now?" I asked her. Sam just let go of my hand and started walking away. I got mad, and punched the wall. Sam turned around and went off on me."you have no reason to punch that wall. I have every reason, all I want to do is get wasted right now and there's one person to blame for that and it's you." Sam said starting to cry again. "I said Lauren because me and her had the same fight, same place. The fight was when I was becoming famous and she was getting hate and she told me how mean they were and that she was using me for fame anyway. Which is what got our relationship rocky." I explained. Sam just stood there like she didn't know what to do. "I just want you to be happy Shawn, and if that means being with Lauren do it. I miss you means more than I love you, you miss her. I don't want to hold you back from your happiness." She explained to me. "I'm happiest with you though Samantha, I never cried to Lauren like I cry to you because I wasn't as afraid of losing her as I am of you. I miss you after 1 hour Sam. Trust me on this one. I want you." I explained to Sam with a tear falling down my face. "Don't cry." Sam told me while wiping my tear. "I'm not goin' anywhere." She told me. "I'm so sorry Sam. I hurt you bad and I told myself I never would again." I said starting to cry thinking about how hard she was crying earlier. "Shawn that's over, I'll be fine. I always am." She told me which calmed me down. I kissed Sam more passionate than usual. "Thank you." I said resting my head on hers. "Okay well I have to change." Sam told me. I just nodded and let her go. After a few minutes I got on Twitter "Shawns the cutest cryer ever I swear." "SAM WHYD YOU TWEET THAT" I screamed at her chuckling. "Because it's funny" Sam said walking out. I was amazed. She had a short black dress on with some sparkly stuff on it her hair was curled and some of it was up in a ponytail.

"What are you staring at?" She asked me. "You look beautiful." I said going up to her. I picked her up by her bottom and kissed her. During the kiss I squeezed her ass and she didn't even flinch or anything. "Doesn't faze me anymore Mendes, now go shower. We have an hour." She said walking away. "Yes ma'am" I said walking in the bathroom.

Once Sam and I finished getting ready we left to the dinner, while we were walking a fan came up to me crying "I'm @peacemendes do you know me?" She said freaking out, this username sounded really familiar I looked at Sam and she looked shocked, that's when I remembered. "Yeah I do know you your the one tweeting shit about my girlfriend using me for fame and other stuff." I told her, she looked shocked. "Shawn stop." Sam said quietly and lightly hit my arm. I just sat there. "Thank you for supporting me I love you now let's get a picture so Sam and I can get to our date." I told the fan. The girl posed for the picture with me and hugged me, in the hug she started bawling. "I'm sorry I didn't think you'd see it." "It's okay just don't make stuff up about her again, because Sams the realist, most perfect, nicest person I know. She would never use me for fame." I explained looking at Sam while she blushed. The fan went up to Sam "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that stuff about you." She apologized to Sam. "It's okay sweetie, just know that actually caused a huge fight today, that hate affects us more than you all would ever think it would." Sam calmly told the girl. Who started crying harder. "Okay we have to go, it's okay we all make mistakes." Sam told the girl as we started walking away. I grabbed her hand as we were walking to the restaurant. "You handled that good." I complimented her. "If you weren't so famous I would've punched her." Sam replied with no emotion. I started laughing which made Sam start laughing.

We got into the restaurant. "Mendes" I told the hostess. The surprise was coming up. We started walking to our special place in the restaurant. We walked in and you could see the lights hung up and the music playing. The song being our song, which is Yellow by Coldplay. I had rented out the whole room so it was only us. "Shawn this is amazing." Sam said as she kissed my cheek. We sat down. "How'd you get the champagne?" Sam asked as she poured it. "Let's just say saying your signed to island records can you get you about anything you want." I told her. "About that when are you telling her your fans?" Sam asked. "I'll do it now." I said as I pulled out my phone to post the picture and say it. "Okay finished." I told Sam. "Sam I know today was rough, but thank you for everything. You've stuck with me through everything and I love you so so much. And again I'm sorry for today and everything else I've ever done to you. And I want this week to be the best week ever because schools starts then." I told Sam. "I love you too, but don't remind me please."

After our great date we went back to our hotel and had one of the greatest, most intimate nights of our lives.