Victoria's Rants

football games

apparently if you're not popular in school people from school will not follow you back

around two weeks ago I decided to get an instagram again because why not, I kind of missed it and yada yada yada. so, I get one, and I follow a couple of my friends and some people I know from school.

and literally half of them don't bother to follow me too even though they know me??

likE THIS ONE GIRL WHO ISNT FOLLOWING ME BACK AND SHE WAS IN MY FIFTH GRADE CLASS

AKA ONLY TWO YEARS AGO UM OK

I'm not trying to sound like all I care about is followers but seriously, how would you feel if someone from school you knew didn't follow you? yeah that makes you feel suck-ish inside

like am I not likable

do you hate me

do I smell (I hope to god if I do someone tell me I need to know)

is it because I'm """"weird"""" (some kid who doesn't even know me personally said I was weird based on my instagram posts like okay so I guess selfies and taylor swift appreciation posts is suddenly considered weird now)

or is it because I'm not popular (I'm like 85% sure this is the reason omfg)

oops?? I'm sorry I'm not very known in school or that I don't really talk to anyone but my friends or that I'm not dating anyone?? (beCAUSE HELLO WERE LIKE TWELVE TO THIRTEEN YEAR OLDS WHAT ARE WE DOING DATING OTHERS)

ask anybody and I'm sure they'd tell you they're in a two year old relationship at my school (I laugh because that means they've been dating since fifth grade and just lolololol srsly when I was fifth grade I was too busy with gymnastics or reading)

so basically the moral of this part of the rant is that if you're not popular not a lot of people from school will follow you back I suppose

ANYWAYS so today I went to this football game like everyone at school and everyone I knew was going to and I thought why not go? I've never been to a school football game so might as well go to one now.

and while I was there I see this popular guy who's kinda cute and kinda not at the same time (he's kinda not cute because he's so bitchy towards people and that's a major turn off for me) and I get really nervous when he's near because he's popular and I automatically get insecure? I can't explain it but you know what I mean

and then my friends catch me at the moment I seem nervous looking at him and they're like, "omg do you like him or something?" (really how is it that every time I even look at a boy my friends assume I like him)

I tell them no and I don't really want to explain it because obviously they won't believe me, and one of my friends says, "do you want me to talk to him for you?? here, I know him, so I'll just introduce you to him!!!!"

and I'm just like no

"jess I'm twelve years old I don't think I'm ready for a relationship or anything like that?? what about grades--"

"but you're thirteen in a month, and plus, I'm not trying to get you two to date, just meet him! c'mon."

and oh my god then someone my friend knew says to me, "you know he's never gonna date you, right?"

wAY TO BRING DOWN MY SELF ESTEEM THEN IT LITERALLY PLUMMETED WHEN SHE SAID THAT

ALSO WHAT MAKES YOU THINK HE WOULDNT DATE ME UH ALL RIGHT THEN I DONT EVEN LIKE HIM THAT MUCH SO IDC????

for the entire game my friend tries to get me to meet him and I guess she suddenly forgot  what no means because it was so embarrassing when she'd be like, " *insert popular dude's name*!!! do you know victoria *insert last name*?"

and of course I run the opposite direction because I do not want to meet this person at all because I know for a fact he's gonna think I like him and I don't so why meet him? plus he's a bitch so hahahahahahaha nope

now she plans to talk to him on monday so isn't that great

again, I'm twelve years old

what makes you think I'm in the place to be in a relationship right now (I don't care I'm thirteen next month it doesn't change anything)

basically the moral of this story is that don't look at boys or you'll get wrapped in stupid drama for an entire football game when you were only there to actually watch the game but you couldn't because your friend was trying to get you to meet someone they think you like when in reality you'd never date them in a million years

lastly can I just say that I can't and will never be able to take fifth grade relationships seriously

oh and I hate math (sOMEONE KILL IT)