Fashionably Late. {Pierce The Veil}

Chapter One:My life.

"Are you going to be okay on your own?" Payton asks me. She knows I'm going to lie, she knows that no matter what, I won't be okay. She has no choice but to go, she has plans with her mom and I won't let her stay anyways. I want to be alone.

"I'll be fine." I say with a sigh. She looks at me and stands up. "Call me if you need me." That's her favorite thing to say to me, she knows I'll always need her but it doesn't mean I'm going to actually call her.

I nod and fake a smile, that's something I'm good at. I'm good at faking a smile, laughing, being happy, anything. It's what I've been doing for years now. Payton finally left and now I'm on my own in my small apartment.

Oh by the way, I'm Alexis Ramirez and I just recently turned 20. Payton, well she's my best friend. She's been here for me since I was 12. I don't have many friends, just her, Sammy and Jaxin Hall. I've known Sammy for two years, he actually helped me get my job at Hot Topic. As for Jaxin Hall, he's been my friend since I was 8. Yes he knows Pierce The Veil, yes he works with Tony Perry but he refuses to introduce me to them. He says I'll fangirl too hard and die. Typical.

If you're wondering why Payton didn't want to leave me alone its because I'm fucked up. I've never really had a normal life. My life consists of three friends, working as much as I can and sleeping. It's what helps me stay away from self-harm, well sometimes.

As for my parents, they're dead. They abused me, they hated me and one day they finally left me alone at home to go to my aunts wedding. It was raining that day with high winds. I was at home crying like every other day, when I heard on the news that a woman and a man were in an accident and were pronounced dead. I knew it was my parents. As bad as it sounds, I knew from that very second. The police called to inform me an hour later but it wasn't news. I was 16 at the time so I had my say as to where I wanted to live.

I decided to move in with Jaxin and his family. I didn't like it, I immediately regretted it. His parents treated me like shit and tried saying I killed my parents. So as soon as I turned 18 I moved out into the tiny apartment that I still live in now.

After I moved out from Jaxin's, I became more and more messed up. I constantly blamed myself for my parents death and I constantly asked myself why they abused me. I was never a disobedient kid. I always followed the rules, I never fought in school. I had straight A's. But just after everything, I dropped out. I had a year to go until graduation but I just couldn't handle it anymore.

I'm not a virgin, but I'm not a whore like my mom was. I lost my virginity to my dad, he raped me when I was 12. I tried telling my mom but she only beat me. I was also raped by my very first boyfriend when I was 17. Ever since then, I've never had a boyfriend and I've never really been social. I'd rather be dead than alive.

I have scars on my arms from my dads cigarettes. He use to take the tip of his cigarette and push it onto my skin until I bled. I got use to it though. I don't really feel pain. I have lots of self-harm scars as well but they aren't as bad as the burns. People always question me but I just tell them to fuck off.

Enough about my fucked up life, let's talk about this very moment. So this very moment, I'm getting ready for work. I slip on my black leggings and I put on a Sleeping With Sirens tank top. I look at myself in the mirror like usual and I see nothing but ugliness. I sigh and walk into my bedroom. I know I shouldn't but I decide to anyways. I walk over to my dresser and I pull out my razors.

I count to three before I cut a couple times. I cut deep, but not life threatening deep, only deep enough to see blood. I put away my razors then I slip on an Aspire and Create hoodie over my tank top to hide my cuts from Sammy. I quickly put on my combat boots and tie them up before grabbing my keys and leaving my apartment to my car.

I parked in my usual spot and I sped walked through the parking lot and mall to Hot Topic. "I'm here!" I shout as I walk into the back room. Sammy turns and looks at me then looks down at his watch. "Just on time darling." He says with a smile. I do a little happy dance before grabbing my tag and clipping it on to my sweater. I turn to walk out of the back room when I'm stopped by Sammy. "Wait why on earth are you wearing a sweater? It's like scorching hot outside!" He raises his voice a bit and looks at me as I slowly turn to face him.

"Its not that hot out." I mumble. Sammy walks over to me and puts his hand out. This is the usual routine for when I wear sweaters. There's really no excuse or reason to be wearing a sweater, we do live in San Diego. I put my wrist in his hand and he slowly rolls up my sleeve. "For god sakes, she left you alone didn't she?" He acts like this happens all the time, well it kinda of does, but it's not her fault. "Sammy, she had plans and plus I wanted to be alone." I say defensively. "Yea, so you could do this!" He shouts. "Can we discuss this after work?" I say uncomfortably. He sighs and rolls my sleeve back down. "You're coming to my house after work." He says before walking out of the back room.

I started work off by fixing the t-shirts and then I moved onto fixing the bracelets. "Excuse me, can you tell me where I can find Alexis... Ramirez." I hear a deep voice ask. I place the last bracelet on the rack before turning to face the guy who's asking where to find me.

I turn slowly and I'm taken by surprise. "Adam?" I say unsure. He looks at me and smiles. "Holy shit, two years go by and you totally change on me!" he shouts. I hug him and he wraps his arms around my small frame tightly. "Where the fuck have you been!?" I ask. He pulls away and looks at me. "I was trying to start a band but it kinda failed so I'm back." He says with a sigh. I laugh a little before looking around the store. "Can you maybe... Walk around the store, mall and city until I'm done work. I finish in like three hours." I say with a chuckle. He laughs and nods. "Sorry." I mumble. "No problem, I'll be here five minutes before you get off." He says before hugging me and walking out of the store.

I haven't seen Adam in two years, two long years. I thought he totally forgot about me. Adam was one of my best friends as well. It was always him, Jaxin, Payton and I who hung out. I actually met Payton through Adam so I'm grateful for that. I can't wait to do some catching up with him. He'll probably have lots to tell me so... Sammy's going to need to clean out the back of his car for Adam.

Three hours later:

I was just getting off work when Sammy and Adam burst into the back room making me jump. "For fuck sakes." I mumble. They both laugh and stare at me. "You ready?" Sammy asks. I nod and my eyes go wide. "You have to clean the back of your car." I say. Sammy shakes his head and laughs. "Honey, you brought your car, remember? So meet me at my place unless you want to meet for coffee or something tomorrow?" He asks. I look at Adam for an answer but he just shrugs.

"Catch up with your long lost friend, but don't forget to call me tomorrow!" Sammy says as he hugs me. "I won't Sammy!" He nods and leaves and I grab my keys before leaving with Adam as well.

Adam and I managed to get out of the mall before it closed which was good because I usually get locked in then I have to find a janitor or security guard to let me out. "Keys?" Adam sticks his hand out and expects me to hand my keys over. "Bitch, no. This car is my baby." I say with an over exaggerated sigh. He laughs and sticks his hand in my pocket and grabs the keys then runs to the door and unlocks it. "Adam! I'll beat your ass if you go in the drivers side!" I shout. He laughs and does what I tell him not to.

I had no other choice but to get in the passenger side and let him drive us to my apartment. I was so scared for my cars sake.