Chapter Eight:A Song To Cheer You Up.

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It's hard for me to open my eyes, it's so bright in my apartment. I slowly start to open my eyes. I feel arms around me, I know they're Tony's. His scent fills my nostrils, he smells like mints and cologne. I smile a little but then Payton comes in my head, she's in front of me, smiling widely, I swear she can see me. She's looking right at me, I reach for her but she disappears. "PAYTON!" I scream. "Come back!" I feel tears streaming down my cheeks.

I feel like I'm on a ride, I'm shaking, it won't stop and I can hear faint noises. "Alexis." I hear. I'm desperately searching for somebody, suddenly Tony's gone. "Alexis, wake up." I hear it again. I start panicking, I'm lost, alone and scared. This is the first time I've been scared to be alone. "Wake up!" I feel a hand across my face and my eyes shoot open.

I look around, I'm in my apartments but this time Tony's cradling me in his arms and he's rocking back and forth. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hit you, I was scared." Tony looks so scared, so worried. "Where's Payton?" I ask confused. "Alexis, you were having a bad dream, you wouldn't wake up." Tony says softly. He avoids answering my question. "Tony, where's Payton?" I ask again. He sighs and holds me tighter. "She's out." He watches me carefully. "Will she be back soon?" I ask. He nods and smiles a little.

I had a shower and put on Payton's track pants that she always forgot to take home. I slip on a black Key Street crew neck before putting my hair up in a bun. I didn't really feel like wearing makeup today. I hangup my towels and head back into the living room where Tony's sitting. "Hey." I say cheerfully as I sit down beside him. He looks at me and smiles. "Hey." His smile isn't meaningful, I can tell it's fake. "What's wrong?" I ask. He shakes his head and pats my thigh. "Nothing." He says. I raise an eyebrow and nod.

Tony and I just sat around and watched movies for half of the day, Payton still hasn't came back, maybe she's with Jaxin? As if on cue, Jaxin walks in but closes the door behind him. He looks sad, depressed and sick. "Where's Payton?" I ask. Jaxin looks at me in surprise and shakes his head. "Alexis, how can you even ask that?" He says, I can see tears in his eyes. "What? I asked a simple fucking question." I hiss. Jaxin looks at me weird and then looks at Tony.

"She's dead, she died yesterday, remember?" He snaps. I see tears start streaming down his face then it feels as if I'm being kicked in the stomach. She's dead? She's dead? She died? Why wasn't I aware of this? "When were you guys going to tell me?" I ask in disbelief. "YOU KNOW!" Jaxin screams. I look down at Payton's pants then it hits me, she's dead, she died, my best friend died yesterday. The cops came and notified me.

"Oh god." I gasp and start bawling my eyes out. "Oh god, Payton." I mutter between sobs. Tony grabs me from my waist and pulls me into his lap. He holds me tightly and cradles me. "Sh, Alexis, shes safe, she's okay." Tony whispers. "No, she needs to be here!" I yell. I continue to cry and Jaxin walks over to me and gets on his knees and holds out his arms. I get out of Tony's hold and go into Jaxin's arms. We both just hold each other and cry.

Tony's P.O.V:

Alexis and Jaxin eventually stopped crying and Adam came and picked up Jaxin. As for Alexis, well she was out of it. She was so lost, so sad. I couldn't handle seeing her like this. "Hey, how about we go visit the guys?" I say with a smile. She looks at me and shrugs. "If you want." She says quietly. I sigh and get up to put my shoes on. Alexis just sat there so I decided to put her shoes on for her. "Tony, I'm capable." She snaps. I groan and grab my keys. "Let's go." I open the door and head down to my car.

I didn't give her much of a chance to walk up the driveway, I grab her hand and drag her inside. "Guys, Alexis, Alexis, your heroes." I push her forward and the guys look at me confused. I pull out my phone and text each one of them to let them know what happened. They seemed to understand what to do.

"Alexis, how are you?" Jaime says with a smile. Alexis just shrugs and sits down beside Vic. "Anything new?" Vic asks. "My best friends gone." She says softly. I hear her voice break and I can see the tears in her eyes. The whole room goes silent and they no longer have a plan.

"So is everybody excited for warped tour?" I blurt out. All the guys answer with cheerful yes' but Alexis shakes her head. "I'm not going, Payton and I were suppose to go and I can't go without her." I see a tear fall from her cheek and Vic notices too, he quickly wraps his arms around her and holds her tightly. She puts her face in Vic's chest and her body starts shaking, I can hear little sobs and I can't help but feel like this is actually all my fault.

I get an idea. I quickly get up and run downstairs to get my acoustic guitar. I remember Jaxin telling me her favorite song was Hold On Till May. I run back upstairs, into the living room and I sit down. I try to catch my breath before looking at Vic and mouthing him the song. He nods and clears his throat. Alexis doesn't remove her grasp from Vic, but it doesn't stop me. I start to play the chords and her head perks up a little.

"She sits up high, surrounded by the sun. One million branches and she loves everyone. Mom and dad, did you search for me? I've been up here so long, I'm going crazy. The sun went down, we ended up on the ground, I heard the train shake the window you screamed over the sound. As we own this night, I'll put your body to the test with mine. This love was out of control, three, two, one where did it go?"

We were all caught by surprise when Alexis started singing with Vic. I smile widely, her voice was beautiful, so soft and delicate. The song ends and she notices that we are all starring at her. "What?" She says confused. Vic looks at me then back at her. I know what he's thinking. "Oh, nothing." I say dramatically. She laughs a little and looks down at her feet.

I think she might be the girl I want, the girl I can picture myself with for a long time but she probably has a bad perspective of me because of what I did. I don't blame her and I don't blame her for accusing me about the death of Payton. I can't help but feel like it's my fault and I just, I can't deal with it for much longer. I should of been there, I should have been honest with her. If I was there for her, Payton wouldn't of gone there worried and she would of been safe and sound.

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