Fashionably Late. {Pierce The Veil}

Chapter Twenty-Two:This One's For You.

WARNING: May Trigger.

Alexis' P.O.V:

Today is going to be a shit day. Don't ask me how I know, I just do. Tony's already mad at me because I told him that I didn't want to deal with anyone at all today. He of course yelled at me and told me not to call him for awhile before leaving. Shortly after that I got a phone call from Casper saying he was getting married but he didn't want me helping out with any of it because he didn't want to add any unwanted stress to my crazy life.

Oh lets not forget when Jye showed up at my door with a bottle of wine and the picture of us kissing from the first night we slept together. I took the wine but then very rudely ripped the picture in front of him and told him to fuck off. That brings us to what I'm doing now. Right now I'm sitting on my floor in my room drinking the very same wine from Mr. Menzies himself, while staring at pictures of Payton and I.

I told Tony I wouldn't drink anymore but I didn't buy this, it was given to me as a peace offering...which ended up being a total fail. God, why can't I just control myself? Why do I do this? Is this how I'm going to live my life, always drunk and always feeling numb.

"Fuck life." I mumble to myself.

I don't need this, I don't need any of this. I should be happy, I should be with my boyfriend. I should be enjoying the warmth of the sun outside. I should be living my life! To bad I'm already drunk though, I don't feel like going out when I'm like this, maybe I can just clean my room instead?

I get up slowly, my room spins a little before it becomes blurry and very odd looking. I shake my head before I continue my adventure to the closet. I open it and just stare at the mess, clothes were neatly hung but then there's papers and boxes on the floor. I sigh loudly as I sit down in front of the cluttered pile of random things, this should be fun.

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I had everything organised and in place but I still had one more box to go through, it was small and light and it looked old as hell. I pick up the scissors from the floor and bring it to the top, I slide it down the seam of tape, opening it to my access.

I pull things out, mostly papers but one thing catches my eye. A piece of lined paper with neat hand writing and a familiar name signed at the bottom. I pick it up and bring it close so I can read it.

Jaxin & Alexis;

You guys are my only friends, the only people I consider to be family. You two mean the world to me but as sad as this sounds, it's not enough. I don't want to hold you guys back anymore with my problems, with my constant depression and mood changes. I want you both to be happy and I want to be happy as well and the only happiness I can find is death. I know it's sudden and I know it may seem unfair or selfish but it's for the best. I love you both so much and I want you to know that there was nothing any of you could do to stop me. See you in the afterlife.

Love forever & always, Pierce Marshall.

My mouth falls open and tears come to the brim of my eyes, Pierce killed himself? Jaxin lied to me! He told me that he moved away! He told me he'd come back but I'm never going to see him again, he's gone forever. Why would he lie to me? Pierce wrote the letter to both of us not just him! Pierce wanted me to know just as much as he wanted Jaxin to know.

Anger and sadness takes over my numb state and I find myself dialing Jaxin's number. I wipe away the tears that start to stream down my cheeks, I need to be calm, I need to be strong.

"Hello?" His voice just sends me over the edge and I just can't hold back anymore.

"You lied to me you fucking piece of shit! You told me he moved, you told me he'd be back but he's dead. He killed himself nearly six years ago and you never bothered to tell me." I scream.

I start to cry, I was torn to pieces. Pierce was my best friend, him and I were close just like Payton and I were.

"Alexis, oh god I'm so sorry. I was scared to tell you, I was scared that you'd start to go back to your old ways. I wanted you to just forget about him, to not have to be broken because of his stupid choice."

"How could you say that?! You worthless asshole! He meant so much to me and he still does, I could never forget about him but clearly you could. To think he actually considered you to be his friend is a joke. Don't ever come near me again." I hang up on him and just sit there.

This was all too much to handle. I'm just finding out that somebody I cared and still care for now is dead because he took his own life. I know why he did it, I know exactly why but I don't understand why'd he leave us like that.

The reason my best friend killed himself is because he had a messed up life. He was bullied at school, he was bullied by his own blood, his family! He tried so hard to fit in, he tried to make his parents proud but they never noticed. They only noticed that he was too tall, too skinny and to gay for him to be their son. They were disgusting people and I tried to help Pierce in every possible way but apparently it wasn't enough.

I grab my very last razor from its hiding spot and I place it on my wrist, I'm not going to take my life but I'm going to release this pain that's deep inside of me. I slide the cold metal across my wrist, deep and hard bringing blood to the surface.

"This one's for you Pierce."

{A/N: Alright readers, this chapter was seriously a downer and I'm sorry. This chapter goes out to anyone who has taken their own life, or to anyone who's lost someone close from suicide. Suicide is never the answer and neither is self-harm so please, find someone who can help you. Help someone you know who is going through a hard time, just be there for them. I'm here for all of you and I honestly mean it. You all are worth so much and you all deserve to be here, don't ever forget that. Btw listen to I'll Get By - Pianos Become The Teeth. Great song and great lyrics.}