Fashionably Late. {Pierce The Veil}

Chapter Six:Alone.

Alexis' P.O.V:

I woke up at home, I don't remember coming home? I remember being in the hospital for days but that's all. "Finally you're awake." I hear somebody say. I jump and look to my side to see Tony sitting there. "When did I get home?" I say with a sigh. "Last night. I carried you up here." He says with a smile. I smile and look around.

I laid in bed for another hour before joining Tony downstairs. "How are you feeling?" Tony asks as I sit down beside him. "Better." I mumble. That was a lie, I wasn't feeling better at all. I kept telling the nurses I was 100% but I really wasn't, I just wanted to go home. I hate hospitals but I should've stayed longer. It hurts to sit, walk, stand. It hurts like a bitch. "That's good." Tony says with a smile. I nod and look in the kitchen.

"Wheres Adam?" I ask confused. "He's staying with Jaxin." Tony rubs my thigh and looks at me. I nod and fake a smile. Tony looks at his phone and his face drops. "What's wrong?" I ask. He looks up at me and shakes his head. "I have to use the bathroom." He mumbles. I nod and give him a questioning look.

I watch as Tony gets up and walks over to the bathroom. I look at the coffee table and see his phone. I can see it's still on the message. I move a little closer but than stop. It's not my business, but I just really want to know who it is. I move closer and read the name. "Stephanie.?" I whisper. I remember hearing about her, she's Tonys ex. I get curious and I can't help but read the messages.

Stephanie:

Can I come to your place in an hour?

Tony:

For what?

Stephanie:

I want to ride your dick again, baby.

Tony:

Steph, I'm not even home and last week was the only time and last time.

Stephanie:

Come on, you enjoyed it. I'll be gone right after, you won't even have to talk to me.

I stop reading them and go back to where I was sitting. Tony comes out of the bathroom and sits back down. He picks up his phone and starts texting. I lay my head on his shoulder and I glance over at his phone.

Tony:

Fine, I'll be home in like two hours.

My heart drops. He is using me. I can't believe they had sex last week and he didn't even tell me! "Hey, what do you want to do?" Tony asks. I remove my head from his shoulder and I sit up. "Can you leave." it's not really a question, it's more of a demand. "Why?" Tony asks confused. I don't want to say anything about Stephanie so I make an excuse. "I have work in like in hour." I say. He raises an eyebrow. "No you don't, Sammy said you were off for a couple weeks until you heal." He says confused. I sigh and roll my eyes.

"You caught me, I just want to be alone, can you do me the favor and leave?" I say impatiently. He looks at me questioningly. "No, I'm not leaving you alone." He says simply. "Tony just fucking leave!" I shout. "I'm not fucking leaving!" He yells. "You're going to leave in two hours to go fuck your ex again anyways!" I scream. His mouth drops. "You read my messages?" He says. "Yeah, so what? You weren't going to tell me anything, you were just going to lie like everybody fucking else." I spit.

"I didn't want to tell you because this exact reason! You'd just push me away!" He shouts. "Tony, I wouldn't because its better when you tell the truth!" I scream. He sighs and runs a hand through his hair. "We were never even dating so why does it matter?" He hisses. I get up and walk over to the front door where his shoes are. I bend down and wince in pain. "Alexis, take it easy." He says. I laugh without humor and pick up his shoes.

I walk back over to him and throw his shoes at him. "Don't talk to me anymore! I'm not going to be one of those fans you can just use!" I scream. Before he can say anything I go into my room and slam the door. "GET OUT!" I yell loudly. I hear him open the front door and close it. I open my door slowly and look out. He left, good. I sigh and close the door again. I knew he was using me, I knew he never liked me. I curse under my breath and go and lay on my bed.

Five Days Later:

I stayed in bed all day, well since Tony left that one day. The only things I get up and do is shower, change and get a drink. I haven't ate in five days, my confidence level just went to zero again and now my anxiety is crazier than ever. I can't take it upon myself to go out and face people to get groceries. I won't even answer texts or calls, well considering my phones broken.. It's kind of hard. I won't answer my house phone.

I just finished changing my clothes when I hear a knock on the door. I don't want to answer it, I'm not ready to face people yet. "Alexis? It's Payton. Hun, please answer." I hear Payton call from the door. I sigh and walk to the door and open it. "What?" I ask frustrated. "I haven't seen or heard from you in awhile. I was worried." She looked so sad, sympathy was just written all over her and I hate it. My blood was boiling and I just wanted to punch her. I wanted to punch her and everybody else who cares about me.

"Jaxin told me what happened, I'm really sorry, but you should talk to Tony?" She says. I sigh and run a hand through my hair. "I don't need your pity, Payton. I'm fine." I hiss. She sighs loudly and shakes her head. "You do need my pity. You need to know that I care and that I'm here for you. Stop trying to push me out of your life." She raises her voice and I'm about to snap.

"Payton, I don't push people away! They choose to leave. They decide they don't want to be here anymore. They're so fucking stupid that they actually believe that I want them gone, that I don't need them and it irritates me because when will they ever get the clue and just fucking stay?" My logic and understanding of this whole pushing away thing has grown, it's so unbearable that I can't help but test my "pushing away" theory.

Payton looks at me dumbfounded and shrugs. "Look, if you want to leave, go ahead. I'm not forcing anybody to be here. It's your own doing." In all honesty, I didn't want her here. She looks away but then looks back at me and her eyes land on my arms. "This is why I don't leave, Alexis. This is why I don't understand why people leave you." She says, I see a tear roll down her cheek. She reaches her hand out slowly to my right arm. She runs her finger gently over my cuts. They're deep but healing well.

Payton could tell I wanted her gone and so she decided to stay longer. She even invaded my room and took every sharp object including my stash of razors. She even took away all my glass stuff from my kitchen and replaced it with plastic things. My whole house was child proof but as she called it, "Alexis Proof." I had no knives, no scissors, no lighters. Nothing. She took anything I could harm myself with, away.

"Payton, there has to be something you have to do." I whine. Shes looking in my fridge and soon moves on to looking in my cupboards. "When's the last time you ate?" She asks. I shrug and I know she's going to push me to tell her. "Alexis..?" She says impatiently. "Five." I mumble. "Louder." She says annoyed. "Five days!" I yell. She huffs and slams her hand on my counter. "For god sakes Alexis! You've had an eating disorder in the past!" She says in anger. I sigh and it hurts my ribs, that's the first time in a few days that I've felt pain in them.

"I'll be back. I'm going to buy you food." Payton says as she walks over to the door and grabs her keys. "I don't need food." I know she won't listen but it's worth the try. "I'll be back." She says again. She opens the door and leaves. "Finally, alone time." I sigh and sit back. I hope she gets stuck in traffic for a few hours so I can have my privacy back.

I get up and go back into my room. I've had enough excitement for the day. I take off my pants and shirt and grab Jaxin's hoodie and slip it on. I've had his sweater for months, I kept trying to give it back but he insisted I keep it. It was comfy and warm so no complains.

I lay down and get under the covers. My pillow smells like Tony and it comforts me but I wish he was here holding me against his warm muscular body. I sigh and close my eyes at the painful yet good memories. I take a deep breath and soon sleep takes over.