Fashionably Late. {Pierce The Veil}

Chapter Fifteen:New friends.

Was it ever okay to feel like there's no hope left for us? Because lately, that's how I've been feeling. No matter what inspirational quote someone gave me, I'd always see the negative side of it. Like example, "You have many options in life, never make giving up one of them." I think to myself, well what if it's too late for it not to be an option? What if they gave up a long time ago and just haven't made it obvious? I know, I have people here for me and I know they care but I really don't want them here. I was forced to be here, on this tour with Capture The Crown and I can't leave now.

I've been on this tour for a couple of weeks and I don't hate it but I don't like it. Jye still gives me full body inspections every night but he's always disappointed to see new cuts. He doesn't understand why I do it, where I keep getting the razors and how I'm not happy. It's simple. I do it because I've been ignored by everyone except Jye at night, I feel unwanted. I get the razors from the shavers I find laying around. I'm not happy, well because I'm just not. I mostly try and avoid being in the bus because the guys all just stare at me and judge me in their minds. Which is why I always have to be looked after by Jye at night time, so I don't wonder off and never return.

"Hey." I say as I walk out of the bathroom. Jeffrey looks up at me and looks me up and down, examining each piece of clothing I have on. Which is, skinny jeans and an Of Mice & Men top. I roll my eyes and bring my dirty clothes to my bunk before returning back into the front. "Tell Jye I'm walking around the venue." I say to Blake before putting on my shoes and grabbing my V.I.P pass. I exit from the bus and start to walk into the direction of tents. The cool air felt nice on my arms, lately they've just been aching from all the cuts I've been trying to hide but today, I didn't feel like hiding anything.

"Isn't that the girl that Mike said was a band whore?" I hear a girl say loudly to her friend. I turn my head to look at them and they start to laugh. I sigh and put my head down as I continue to walk. "Hey, you want to be my first costumer of the day?" I hear a guy say. I look up at the tent beside me. In big bright blue letters it reads "Like Moths To Flames." I look at the guy who's obviously a few years older than me. "Uh, sure?" I slowly pull out my wallet and examine the merch laid out. "I'll take the black crew neck in a small." I mumble. He grabs what I ask for and I gladly hand him forty.

"Half off for you." He says as he hands back twenty. I shrug and try to smile. "Thanks." I go to walk away but he grabs my wrist making me pull away quickly. "What the fuck?" I snap as I turn back around. He frowns as he sees my wrist starting to bleed. "I didn't know, come here." I groan and go behind the table, where he puts a napkin on my wrist. "I'm sure I have a bandaid somewhere." He mutters to himself. He reaches over and grabs a box where he starts taking things out. "Found one." He exclaims.

After the guy bandages my wrist for me he puts out his hand for me to shake. "Casper." I smile a little at his name, it was unique. "Alexis." I respond back as I take his hand. He shakes my hand and pulls away, leaving me to awkwardly put my hand on my lap. "Who are you here with?" He asks. "How do you know I'm not a fan?" I ask curiously. "Because I see you everyday at a venue, walking around." He says plainly. I laugh a little and shake my head "Capture The Crown." His eyebrows go up and he smiles. "Sweet." He says excitedly.

Casper made me sit in the tent with him and help him with sales. "Listen, about those cuts. Don't do it anymore. You're too beautiful to be doing this to yourself." He glances over at me and frowns. I look down and stare at my feet. I've heard this time and time before, I can never promise them I won't do it because I will. "I know it's hard to promise but try." I look up at him confused and he rolls up his sleeves to his hoodie and shows me his scars. I have nothing to say, I lean over and hug him. I squeeze him a little before pulling away to smile at him.

"Alexis." I look up to see Jye standing there on the other side of the table. "Where have you been?" He asks. Like it wasn't obvious, I was obviously here the whole time. "Hey, it's an honor. I'm Casper, I asked Alexis to help me out today, if you don't mind." Jye looks at Casper who appears beside me. "Nice to meet you and it's not a problem. Kris said you looked upset so I got worried." He says honestly. I nod my head but than shrug. Like Kris really cared, he probably only said that so Jye would stop bugging him about me.