Damaged Hearts (Norman Reedus)

(Dreams)

***Thursday 6:02 am***

Needless to say I didn't wake up from my nap till just now and I feel like complete shit. Head hurting as if I had a hang over and I haven't even started drinking yet...but I woke up and I noticed I was completely alone, no play pin, no Mason and no sign of the man I dreamed about for almost 18 hours straight.

When I fully got up I walked like a walker down the hall to the bathroom and took me a cool shower to clear my head, not as if the dream I had was those type of dreams. I never seem to be that lucky to have them type of sex dreams about him...but in my dream I was happy for once but hell what woman in their right mind wouldn't be happy.

With my emotion state I was in I didn't notice I was sitting in the floor of my shower with my knees to my chest rocking myself back and forth crying until my mom came into the bathroom.

"Boo-bear...honey are you ok?" Mom asked in her sweet voice.

"Yeah Momma I'm fine I just have one of those damn headaches where I hurt all over...where's Mason?" I asked picking my head up off my knees.

"He's in the living room fast asleep...I didn't want to wake you, I knew you needed the sleep so I brought him in there." Mom said as I cleared my nose.

"I...I wish...you would have...woke me up." I said as I took a hold of the metal bar that held the shampoo's and body washes so I could pull myself up.

"One of those dreams hu? Nightmare?" Mom asked as I sarcastically laughed.

"Yeah...you can say that. Only because I had to wake up." I said letting the cold water hit my hair so I could wash it. I didn't even feel the cold goosebumps that formed on my body.

"Oh, well when you get out come to the computer room and tell me about it...I'll have you a cup of coffee waiting for you." Mom said as I smiled. "But you can't eat anything until you tell it cause then it wont come true." She added as I laughed.

"Ok mom I'll be out in a few minutes." I said and I took a hand full of L'OREAL' Paris Total treatment shampoo and lathered it in.

"Alright boo." I heard Mom say before hearing the door shut behind her.

Once she left me I finished taking my shower and dried my hair before wrapping my towel around my body so I could go back to my bedroom to find something to wear. I ended up finding my Bob Marley muscle shirt that I found the men department since wal-mart doesn't carry awesome kick ass shirts for women (so sexist) then I found my black yoga short that had skulls on the waist band. I got dressed and headed to Mom's computer room.

I stopped in front of the play pin where Mason was. He looked so peaceful, I couldn't help but to smile at him and genitally touch his curly hair. After a few minutes I stopped and looked towards Mom's computer room and noticed she was standing there smiling at me.

"He ended up going to sleep around 11ish he should be out for awhile." Mom said as I fully stood up and headed for the fridge to get my Fuzed iced tea (half and half) and took it with me to Mom's computer room.

Once there I sat in my usual spot in her wicker Japanese chair that I claimed. Mom let me have my first morning cigarette and drink some of my coffee before talking to me. After smoking my cigarette I found the Tylenol and took 3 washing them down with the coffee.

"Ok, let it out what did you dream about...was it one of those dreams that seemed so real that you couldn't believe it was a dream?" Mom asked as I nodded.

"Yep." I said turning on my laptop and logged on to my VK account putting on my 70's and 80's rock playlist that consisted of OMD, The Ramones, ELO, Alice Cooper, Golden Earring, and Blue Oyster Cult. I let (Radar Love) by Golden Earring play before I started to tell Mom my dream.