Fall for You

Five

5| Set Me Free

Sa buhay natin, may mga bagay talaga na mahirap pakawalan. 'Yong mga bagay na pinanghawakan mo sa mahabang panahon, na pakiramdam mo sadyang parte na iyon ng buhay mo.

Parang 'yong guilt ko sa naging kasalanan ko kay Marcus. Pakiramdam ko tumatak na 'yon sa pagkatao ko. Iyon na ang naging batayan ng kung anong klase ng tao ako.

That defined who I am right now

After a week of hiding, I finally gathered my strength to came out of my shell.

I walked on the direction where Marcus is. He's just drinking his beer on the counter and let the world spin around him. I smiled at James who's busy mingling with others at the dance floor.

I tapped his shoulder and he look surprised to see me. Then I saw relief on his face. He clutched my wrists then asked me where have I been. I just smile at him. I made my heart as hard as a steel.

For years, I am doing my best to be as mechanic as possible. Kasi kapag para kang makina, parang bato ang puso mo, wala lang ang lahat ng maririnig mo, wala kang pakielam sa paligid mo. And I am succeeding... until he came back. 

I just went to Japan to clear my mind. I have to regain myself. From the moment I found out that he is Marcus, my old friend, nightmares of the past haunted me. 

Sabi ko sa sarili ko noon, kapag nagkita ulit kami, gagawin ko ang lahat para makabawi sa kanya. Lahat ay kakayanin ko para sa kapatawaran niya, kahit pa hindi ko deserve 'yon. 

He asked me again the same question.

Where have you been, Tatiana?

I didn't answer him and just dragged him out of the bar. I told him to bring me home.

He's reluctant at first but agreed anyway.

I made him stop the car in front of our house. I know that no one is here aside from the hired helpers.

I lead him to where my room is and kiss him right away after closing the door. 

Part of me says that this will be my payment. A good f*ck will compensate for my mistakes. And my virginity can compensate for his wrecked ego. He can flaunt all he want how he drilled his thing on me. 

But another part of me wants him. He awaken my need of intimacy. He made me sensual. The moment his lips touched my skin, he set me on fire. And we have to do something to appease the flame.

He kissed me back. There is no doubt that he wants me. Maybe more than I want him. 

I start unbuttoning his button-down shirt as we hungrily kissed each other. I moaned in his mouth when he pulled me closer and press his hard member on my stomach. 

He lifted my dress up and completely removed it. He removed his shirt as well.

It's not the first time he saw my body, but it feels more intense than the first time. I let my eyes feast on his torso. 

Gone was the 'toothpick', he's now lean and muscular. Wala ni isang bakas ng batang nerd na nakilala ko. Ibang-iba na talaga siya.

He pulled me towards the bed and he gently pushed me so that I will lay on my back. He kissed me hotly as he removed the rest of his clothes. 

He kiss every part of me, every skin. Every touch of his fingers and lips made my skin scorch. I can feel the pooling of lust in between my legs.