tomboy ▪ hemmings

13.

can i just say that jacob whitesides is amazing.

LUKE'S POV

to say that I was pissed - was an understatement.

I stormed out with rage, with my ears throbbing and most probably my face red with fury. I wasn't really sure if it was logical enough for someone to even be that mad. I couldn't care less about what other people thought, I just drove so fast - I probably earned a ticket or two for speeding.

but then I stopped speeding since I had no clue where I was supposed to go. I had no idea where I was going to run away to. I didn't want to drink, even if it could release my tension at the moment. it just felt like a stupid thing to do and I wasn't in the mood to be drunk anyways. I just wasn't.

I ended up driving to a place where I least imagined myself ending up in after what had happened. maybe it was just a place for me to relaxen myself, even if this was the place that started everything.

I sat down in the corner, and the restaurant was deserted. no customers, it was just me. then there was the bald dude from the other day, I could remember that he was close with Andy, maybe I could scoop something out from him.

he placed the menu in front of me, never letting the smile past his lips and that surprises me how people could still be happy even if their restaurant is terribly lacking. not complaining though, since there wasn't any attention on me either.

"hey there, you look familiar." he furrowed his eyebrows and then he smiled and his eyes brightened at the sudden memory flashing through his mind. "where's Andy? is she here with you?"

I scoffed, most probably surprising him too. I didn't mean to really, it just slipped. "nope, she's at home. happily enjoying time with my mom." I pressured the word 'my', most probably sounding like a child.

oh shit, I do sound like a whiny kid.

"oh, okay then. so, ready for order?" he said, most probably changing the topic and focusing on the main reason he was even there.

I didn't even look through the menu, I just craved something to soothe my anger down. "yeah, just give me the largest bowl of cookie and cream ice cream with chocolate sauce and rainbow sprinkles. yeah that." I wasn't sure of myself either.

the dude nodded and went to the back to settle the orders, and I just sat there. I wasn't really sure what to do since I left my phone back home, most probably next to the kitchen door. my wallet had been in my back pocket since this morning.

bald guy came back as soon as he left, and I was pleased. the bowl was mouth watering and I grinned like a kid in a plushies store or something. I said a small thank you (that was quite rare for me) and digged in. I moaned so good at the first bite, and all my worries vanished with them.

bald guy stared at me since I was the only customer in the store, and I decided to find something productive to do since he was right here. I had some questions in my head and I wanted some answers.

"hey, mind sitting here for a while?" I gestured to the empty chair and I watched as he frowned before sitting and looking back at me.

"so, you and Andy close?" I started, since I honestly didn't know where to start.

the bald guy grinned, and leaned back against his chair. "yeah, she's quite the charmer. just like my own kid, I tell ya." he was obviously more relaxed now that he knew the main topic we were talking about.

"why is she, um like that?" I doubted my own words, since I didn't really know how to explain my own question.

"why is she tense, bitchy and boyish?" he said, and I choked on my ice cream. I nodded, since he understood my question so well. precisely accurate.

"she's had a rough past, kid. no parents, no one to depend on other than herself. Adam got bullied and she wanted to defend him, she has her reasons. she's been illegally taking care of Adam and never once has she ever gave up. that's just how she is."

I listened, and I thought about how everything made sense. building up her own armor, because she was always on her own. she was all alone, and I'm nagging about how it isn't fair of her to be in my house, when she never had a real one. I am such a dick.

"you okay, kid?" bald guy asked, and I immediately nodded as I couldn't find my voice to speak.

I thanked bald guy (who I later found out his name and couldn't help but think it was a ship name for Ben and Jerry's, but it was most probably spelled with an a) and finished off my ice cream. I paid and left the restaurant, and sat in my car for a while before driving off.

who was I to nag and brag when I didn't want to live in the same house with my own mom? I suck big time. no wonder the lads keep saying I'm corrupted. I am.

I thought about Andy and Adam, and after eating a whole lot of ice cream, I found myself wanting to share the pleasure too. have they ever eaten ice cream before? yikes, that was something I couldn't live without.

I walked in the grocery store and grabbed two tubs of ice cream; strawberry and chocolate before heading off to the cashier to pay. I felt good somehow, and I don't know if I've ever done such an unselfish thing these past months. Luke Hemmings better get a grip of himself.

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when I reached home, it was dark and I took a glimpse of the clock that ticked in the living room. it was eleven and even though it was still early, I felt a little tired - maybe because I was being a jerk all the time. I sighed before walking over to where my phone was.

there were a few texts and I put it down before rushing to store the ice cream in the freezer before grabbing my phone again. there were a few texts from mom that I had been neglecting the few months and a few from the lads. I checked them out.

from: cal pal

dude u ok? im sorry u stormed out. hope everything's cool.

are u srsly acting like this? im sorry dude.

ok, im guessing ure drunk or asleep so im just going to leave this here.

text me if ure alive.

miss u. #cakeaf lol don't tell mikey

from: mikey muke af

cal says ure mad

r u mad

or r u pmsing aha

from: hobo ashton

Luke, are you okay? Reply ASAP.

I laughed and replied to all of them, ensuring that I'm cool and good. I feel so much better actually. I saw that Adam had left my plushed penguin and giraffe behind, so I thought I'd bring it up to him.

entering his room, I watched as he had his thumb in his mouth and I swore I heard some rustling sounds from the closet but I decided not to care. I was too tired, and so I placed the plushies next to him, and left the room after placing a small kiss on his forehead.

I was such a softie, oh god.

I sprawled on my bed as I scrolled through twitter as my notifications were exploding after what mom did earlier today. I felt bad that I got jealous of Andy and Adam, where I wasn't even allowed to even think so. they deserved much better than I did.

so I decided to tweet something to inform the whole social media network that I was doing fine with it.

@Luke5SOS : kids are cool :-)

I smiled once I tossed the phone off the bed, and stretched my arms behind my head, yawning and slightly dozing off.

then it hit me.

I ate too much ice cream, I just had the urge to pee. and my teeth needs some brushing, I don't want any cavity. well, I was just being cautious.

I grabbed last night's boxers and brought them along so I could simply change after taking a small rinse perhaps at the bathroom at the edge of the hallway. but as I walked out of my room, I found something, or maybe someone that I least expected.