tomboy ▪ hemmings

epilogue.

so here you go, the last chapter where i'm writing in the middle of the night and my cat's right on top of me. thank you for reading this, and giving me a chance to write it out.

andrea turner

if you were to ask me a year ago where I would see myself in the nearest future, it surely wouldn't be where I was at the moment.

I mean, yeah I guess it would be possible but I wouldn't have imagine myself being so. who the hell was I kidding? it wouldn't have happened without Liz and me being homeless. but knowing where I was now, I surely wasn't complaining.

I was currently going back and forth between college and home, adjusting myself to the hectic schedule of me suddenly entering culinary classes that Liz had recommended. I had surely thought about how my connection with food had clicked and I had finally agreed about it being a good idea.

I mean, it was obviously because food and I were just simply inseparable. aha.

Adam was also amazing. he gained excellent grades, and Liz and I were impressed. I was honestly proud of him, and I knew mom and dad would definitely be proud of him.

as much as I was a dropout, I wanted my parents to know that wherever they were, I wanted to make them happy. I wanted it to be possible for them to look down at me and smile. maybe even shed a tear or two from happiness. hey, a girl could hope, can't she?

the lads were also a very interesting topic. they were definitely something -

"hey Andy!"

I laughed as the screen was dark since I was hearing to the familiar voices bickering with each other about how they wanted to hold the freaking phone. sigh, boys will always be boys.

"can I at least talk to someone instead of a black screen?" I said, and it took a few moments before a familiar face came into my view. that sandy coloured and long haired lad came through.

"Andy!" sorry, they were fighting over the phone and I decided to save you away from it, but hey- Bry's here!"

another familiar face came onto the screen and I grinned happily. Bryana had told me earlier that she had a photo shoot somewhere close to the boys, and she obviously took the chance to visit her boyfriend.

wow, I was jealous.

"aww, you guys! gosh, I miss you guys so much!" I talked to the screen, and the cute couple laughed while I heard some other voices bickering again in the background.

"c'mon, can't I at least talk to my girlfriend that I desperately miss since she can't fly over here and talk to me in real life?"

I laughed as Ashton and Bryana rolled their eyes at Luke's sarcasm and I waved at them before they passed the phone around to another familiar face.

"well, nice to see you too beautiful."

my heart leapt at the raspy voice that I longed to hear the past few days since he was too drowned in his interviews and concerts. god, I miss him.

"hi Lucas."

"Andy! hi! when the fuck are you coming here you adorable and lovable person?"

I waved at Calum who had no shame at all before cutting Luke off and I laughed at how Calum and Michael had obviously stole the chance to fill my phone screen. they did this often, and I just didn't have any problems with it - I mean I wasn't complaining.

"well, if that's a way to say that I should be there, I wished I could too." the boys pouted and I smiled.

"awh, we'll be coming back at you in no time Andy!" Michael assured and I nodded, knowing that the boys would be earning their well-deserved trip back home soon..

"okay, I think we should be returning you back to your rightful owner," Calum chuckled making me frown slightly. but then I understood what they were talking about.

"yeah, the giant penguin's sulking right there." I laughed and waved at the boys while Mikey passed the phone to Luke, not before pretending to take a shitload of selfies as he took turns in making silly faces while Luke tried to push him away. I giggled at the joyful sight.

Luke grabbed the phone away and I watched him carry me to another room and I heard him lock it, knowing that he was really wanting to talk to me- alone.

"alright Mr. moody, cheer up now. I'm right here and you know that." I said, looking at him right as he laid back in the armchair.

he groaned, "I know I know, just wanted you to myself." he pouted and I wished I could be there to kiss it away. god, I really did miss him.

"you know I'm all yours, okay?" I whispered and he tried to shy away a smile.

"well, duh." he rolled his eyes and I gave him the middle finger cheekily.

"god, I miss you." he said, after letting the silence linger in the air. we didn't always have these emotional moments since our video calls were always full of silly bantering about how fun life was without the other and we'll slowly admit that we really miss each other.

emotional moments happened when we were emotional. it was rare, but it happened nevertheless. much like what was happening now.

"last concert's tomorrow right?" he nodded and grinned and I laughed along. "well, that's something to be happy about."

"obviously Andrea! I'll be right there to kiss you long and hard and I'll hug and squeeze the fucking life out of you."

Luke and I had a slightly difficult long distance relationship the past few months since he was constantly moving further and further away and being surrounded by beautiful fangirls made me feel insecure. it didn't really bother me at first, but knowing that they could hug him and touch him while I wasn't there to do that to him made me feel a bit sad. it was a silly thought, but I learned to accept it.

our connection wasn't always there since Luke was always drowning in concerts and meet and greets with different venues and I understood that he was tired. I, on the other hand was corrupted with movies and culinary classes and keeping up to date with the networking life. we slowly found our simple ways of keeping each other content with silly selfies or even back and forth voice notes since we were too lazy or even too busy to type it out.

we managed quite well really.

"I'll be there to return the favor Luke, you know I will." I replied, watching as he played around with his lip ring. god, that lip ring.

"well, I don't expect you to not be there- since, you know you've been clingy as fuck these past weeks." he playfully groaned, and I rolled my eyes at his words, a small smile playing on my lips.

"yeah, says the rockstar who whined like a baby because his friends hogged the video call." I teased and I earned a throaty chuckle from him.

"the whiny rockstar that loves you though." he kissed the screen and I pretended to wipe the sloppiness of it from my screen. if only real kisses were sent.

"yeah, sure." I huffed.

"awh c'mon, you're the bitchy tomboy that fell in love with the asshole rockstar right? just can't resist me can you?"

I laughed and shyly nodded. " guess you're right, asshole. I guess I do."

and as stupid as it may sound or even as cliché as it might be, this asshole of a rockstar changed me. he helped me change myself for the better. he made me see who I could be and who I shouldn't be.

even though we weren't even able to talk to each other without fighting the first time we met and he didn't really make a first good impression with me, I still fell for him.

as stupid as it was, it happened.

love happened.

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