A little Pain (BoyxBoy) --Chapter 14 onwards..

Confusion

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His confession made me dumbfound for a moment. No wonder why he has gone through lengths only to help me from this. No matter how twisted my life is, he's always here by my side, trying to understand my weird actions—even the fact that I love my own brother.

A guy like him doesn't deserve me at all.

"I...I don't even know how to..." I averted my gaze away from him as I scratched my head. I can't think straight. My words are stuttering.

"I know you love him."

"huh?"

"But that doesn't mean I'm giving up our friendship." He pauses. "You can still depend on me Yuki—like the usual."

'D-Daiki..."

"Shit, this is so annoying." He shyly covers half of his face with his hand.

Now he's more embarrassed even more. Even I am embarrassed about this. Of all places, of all days he could confess his feelings, he chose to confess today, here in this very room during aniue's wedding rehearsal. What if someone sees us? What would even happen to us then? Secretly, I gazed inside of the function room and searched for people near the veranda who might possibly see us—but thank god, everyone's attention is apparently on the happy couple inside.

I reverted back my attention towards Daiki afterwards. I can bear to look at them even more. It definitely hurts whenever I watch aniue and Chiyoko acting like a genuinely happy couple. Even if it is all staged, I could still feel this heavy burden inside of me.

"Why me, of all people??" I curiously asked. "You don't deserve someone like me."

"Why, is it because you can't return my feelings?"

"..."

I remained silent. He's true but that's just one of the main reasons why he doesn't deserve me at all.

"I understand Yuki."

"I'm sorry." I lowered down my head as I gazed down on the floor.

His kindness tears me apart so much that I feel sorry about everything even more.

"Hey." He suddenly, but gently caresses  my cheeks. "Don't feel bad."

"I...I'm..."

Without any warning, he pinches me like a little child.

"Don't give me that expression. I'm going to seriously kill you."

"D-Daiki---!"

"I shouldn't have confessed to you suddenly." He mutters. "But I could no longer keep all of this. I'm going to explode Yuki. I've reached the point where I badly would want let this all out."

"h-huh??"

"I'm thinking about how I would mess up your life even more by confessing—but...Allow me to be selfish, just this once." He gazes at me seriously.

I only gasped at his reply.

"I'm sorry."

"Y-you don't have to Daiki..."

"Yuki."

That voice suddenly echoed throughout the whole place. It's aniue. My heart skips a beat upon turning my head around to see him standing on the veranda's opened French doors. Immediately, Daiki removed his hands from my cheeks as we moved away from each other.

"What are the two of you doing here?" he smiles. "Is it so cold that you have to caress his face like that Mr. Takeda?"

"Yes, why, is there a problem?" Daiki replies.