A little Pain (BoyxBoy) --Chapter 14 onwards..

Lies

It has been three weeks since my little brother has ever spoken to me. Apparently he's avoiding me after what happened between the two of us.

As his older brother, I shouldn't have let my desires cloud my mind.

What I did was wrong.

But that still doesn't stop the fact that I'm still yearning for him badly. Have I plunged myself deeper into this so much that I could no longer escape from this growing desire towards my brother?

I can't even control myself anymore. This definitely...sucks.

It's already 2am in the morning, I can't sleep even if I force myself to close my eyes. It's futile. In order to make this night prodctive enough, I decided to open my computer and read my e-mails. Suddenly, while browsing, a video call invite popped up on my screen. I smirked upon seeing who the person who's calling me right now. It's been a while Ayase. I then answered it.

"Seiri-kun~" he gleefully greets me.

"You're annoying as always Ayase." I chuckled.

"I'm no longer Ayase. I'm Ayumi!!!"

Oh I forgot. Ayase had a sex change last year.

Ever since we were young, I knew how Ayase loved to be a girl. He cross dresses and pretends as if he's really one. He only normally wears his clothes if he's working as a doctor and if he attends formal occasions. I never find it annoying or disgusting though. Aside form the fact that he's my bestfriend and I support him in his weird antics and decisions, he's androgynous and somewhat pretty as a girl.

"Oh. Okay ayumi. But I'll still call you Ayase." I smiled

"Gosh Seiri you're so persistent. So how's my look now?? Does my blonde hair fit my beautiful face???"

"Uhh. I can deal with it."

"Your face shows otherwise." He frowns. "I look gorgeous Seiri, come on."

"okay." I laughed. "You look...great."

"What's with that look on your face? You look as of you're forced to give me a single compliment."

"You've changed a lot. That's why."

"Is my change in a positive way or in a negative way?" He teases while showing me his mischievous smile. "Come on now. Answer my question honestly. Real talk."

"Positive. Happy now?" I laughed.

"I give up. You are so picky."

"Hey, by my standards you would definitely pass."

"Now that's a compliment." He giggles. "Now now. How are you Seiri?? You look...sad?"

I threw out a lout sigh. I can't even explain everything that has happened to him. For sure he'll be shocked.

"Okay. I know that face. It's about your brother isn't it??"

"..."

"I'll take that as a yes." He rolls his eyes. "What happened...again?"

"I..."

"Come on Seiri."

"We...somewhat...something happened between the two of us. And that something---"

"W-wait, wait. WAIT...WHAT?!?!"

I shrugged.

"You're so stupid!" He shouts out. He's going hysterical. I knew this would eventually happen. "Why would you do that?!?! I can't--I can't even..shit."