We Came to Fuck || gerard

Chapter Ten

A/N: high school sucks and crushes are bitches.

Chapter Ten

•Phoenix•

I watched in the mirror as Kailyn's eyes widened.... Confirming Sydney's statement. I slammed my foot on the brake. My knuckles beginning to turn white from how hard I was gripping the wheel. I clenched my teeth, trying to find the right words to say.

"Phoenix I'm so sorry I-"

"Get out." I said through gritted teeth. I watched as both of the girl's eyes widened at my sudden demand. I didn't care if the campus was a few miles away. I refused to be in the same car as her. I didn't even want to be within a mile radius of the bitch.

"Wha-"

"Get out!" I quickly turned around, "get the fuck out of my car! You're walking!" I unlocked the doors and watched as tears began to fill her eyes. She simply nodded and got out, sniffling as she did so, but I didn't care.

She didn't care about me when she slept with Gerard so why should I care about her having to walk three miles to get to her dorm. I wasted no time before I pulled off, driving like a maniac to get back to campus so I could just go to sleep.

My bed never hurts me.

This is not what u expected when I came to college. I didn't know I was gonna become friends with benefits with some asshole who can't keep his dick in his pants for one night. Not to mention he's with Lynz now so he's also a cheater. Why do I even have feelings for him?

•Kailyn•

I'm such a fuck up. I can't do anything good for the life of me. This whole friendship circle is a mess and I just made it even worse.

The faint sound of music just reminded me that I'm not too far from the party. I turned around and allowed my feet to carry me back to the source of the sound, where I could drown my blood with alcohol.

I felt numb, and alone. After this I'm sure I'll have no one but the random hookups to keep me occupied. Happiness is something thought I had.

Keyword: thought.

But as usual.... I was wrong. Happiness is something that doesn't come to me, only sadness and regret. Life has been filled with disappointments and Pete made me think that I'd finally be happy but no, he was another disappointment.

What does Mikey have that I don't?

Oh wait..... Mikey is good looking. And I am not.

I sighed, my feet starting to ache. I don't like walking, and I'm in heels. This was a bad idea. I shouldn't even be surprised, this is college for gods sake, shit like this is gonna happen.

The music for louder as I got closer and I felt my head pound, the loud music not helping. But I'm already here so I might as well stay for the night and sleep on a guest room.

Maybe I'll meet a boy.

•Phoenix•

I threw myself onto my bed and let the tears sting my eyes. Life was so fucked up, college was supposed to be fun but no, I had to go and meet a bunch of whores.

Maybe it's not too late though. It's only been a few weeks. I can get a job and once I have enough money I can leave.

But wth my luck I'll end up having enough money by my 3rd year of college. I just can't stand to be here anymore. I'd rather be lonely doing good in school than have a bunch of friends that stress me out and make me fail.

It's not worth it.

I stared at the ceiling and thought about how I could leave. I don't care about the consequences, I just want to be gone.

Gone from college, not the world.

This idea was stupid. I'm stupid. But Gerard is more stupid than me.

How much vagina does this dude need?

I don't care........ He's got mine at any time. Wait..... That's wrong. That's so wrong. I could get STD's from him now that he's given it to so many people.

What the fuck am I even talking about? Am I high?

I shoved my face into the pillow, "fuck my life."