We Came to Fuck || gerard

Chapter Twelve

A/N: currently trying to update more for y'all

Chapter Twelve

•Phoenix•

Life sucked ass right now. I was completely distracted. My grades were slipping, and for what?

I was letting this whole Gerard mess fuck me up.

Sighing, I opened the room to my dorm to find Gerard sleeping. I didn't see anything wrong with it until I saw familiar pigtails.

Lindsey's pigtails.

I felt bile rush to my throat and just get stuck there. What a sight to see.

I just bid my farewells to Pete as he went in his own dorm room and I don't feel like going back out. With no other choices I slowly yet quietly walked to my bed, not even bothering to get undressed. I laid my head down and sighed deeply, folding my arms.

I'm so emo right now.

I need cuddles from Mark Hoppus or something. Maybe even Joe Strummer.

I closed my eyes and hoped to fall asleep before the couple awoken.

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"Gerard she's sleeping right there."

"Who cares? We'll be quiet baby. Besides..... I need you so bad right now."

"Gera-"

"She won't wake up. We'll be fast."

I didn't even realize what they were talking about until I opened my eyes. Then it registered.

I sat up faster than you can say 'shit'. I rubbed the eye boogers out the corner of my eye and glared at the couple on the bed across the room. They froze when they saw me.

"You...... Don't you fucking dare to have sex in the same room as me." I jumped up, pointing an accusing finger at the half naked couple.

Despite my anger I couldn't help but feel hurt.

Gerard was my fuck buddy.

Lindsey jumped up, struggling to put her bra back on, "I'm- I am so sorry I told Gerard I didn't wanna do it with you in here and-"

"Save it." I flailed my arms, moving quickly to exit the room. Something I've been doing a whole lot lately.

Fuck it I'm going to class.

I had absolutely no supplies but it didn't matter. All I would be doing was sleeping. Hopefully I could get my friends to forgive me for the mess they got themselves into.

All I did was practically be fucking Robarazzi, and it didn't help. Like at all.

I walked into the lecture half an hour late, everyone looked at me. I didn't care. Pete smiled at me and I returned the gesture, plopping myself down in the chair farthest from the front. I put my head in my hand and listened to the lecture.

Might as well learn if I'm gonna be wasting my time here right?

I sighed as the professor talked about how Columbus "discovered" America. Something we all should've learned in middle school. Everyone knows there were Native Indian Tribes there first. I could name them all.

The Europeans brought smallpox with them and passed it on to the Indians. Poor Indians..... they didn't deserve that.

I drummed my fingers on the desk and thought back to the events that brought me here. Fucking assholes. Gerard was so confusing, I don't know what he wants from me anymore at this point. Does he want me Lindsey, or Kailyn? Can he decide for once?

Time passed and soon class was over. I was the first one out and from there I went to the library so I could sit with my thoughts and silence and maybe scream internally.

Then I'd go back to my dorm and cry myself a bath, because that is what my life has come down to.

Thanks, Gee.

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Due to meeting someone my emo ways have been replenished and I am back for now lmao. A better chapter will be next, if there are typos I'll fix them. Have some faith in me