Therian Diary

Sunday, 27th of September, 2015

I want to start off this chapter by saying thank you for over 200 reads! It means a lot to know that so many people have read this and possibly even learnt something from it. It started out as some rambling about how therianthropy affects my life but it's grown into something I'm quite proud of. I'm amazed that I've kept this diary going for 6 months now. I've learnt many things in this time of knowing and writing down my experiences and I just hope that other people learn the same as I have been. 

Let's update! I got a new tail! It's a silver fox tail, and it's super super soft. It has a variety of blacks and greys up and down the main part of it and it has a white tip. It doesn't smell as strong as my coyote tail, but it certainly makes me feel connected to my theriotype. I've been waiting for a while for a tail that represents me better and I finally have one. I'm overjoyed and I've been wearing it for a while.

I went to the Melbourne show yesterday! I actually wore my new tail to the show, and surprisingly got no mean comments. There was one man working the ferris wheel who said "Hey! No animals on the ride!" And then he laughed. Everyone turned and looked but my friends and I just laughed with them. It wasn't out of cruel heart, so I took no offence to it. I think if I were 13 though, I would have lost it. I've learnt now that whatever you wear is entirely in your choice. But don't choose to wear something when you KNOW you might get shit for it, and then scream and cry when you do get shit for it. Just a tip for all the little emo wolfaboos out there.

SPEAKING OF EMO WOLFABOOS, Why is it that nearly every therian I see on instagram and talk to is either 12 or a complete self righteous emo shithead? Like, wear what you want and all that, it's just the emo mindset that sets me off. And it sets me off that therians are connected to those emo assholes because that's immediately our image. A vocal minority it may be, but it doesn't go unchecked. A lot of people already think therianthropy is a coping mechanism, and they're gonna think it even more if there are more idiotic wolfaboos just going "My sadness is beautiful.." "We're all a little bit mad, aren't we?" "I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim." (also they ruined that wonderful lyric. Honestly I bet half of the people who quote that don't even know who BMTH is.) I dunno. I'm sick of it.

Enough of me getting mad at shitheads. About a week ago I went to the Organ Pipes national park. It was a bit bushy, but I enjoyed walking along the tracks and finding the little river that flowed by the actual organ pipes. If you don't know what I'm talking about, the organ pipes is what happened when millions of years ago, volcanic matter cooled too fast and made these giant rocky columns which resemble the pipes on an organ. Quite an interesting sight. If you live around Melbourne I'd suggest checking it out. There's also an area called the Tessalated Pavement. It's a really nice rocky area with grass growing in between the cracks of all of the stones and the river flowing by the edge of it creating a serene environment. Great for relaxing, but I'd suggest wearing boots or thick shoes. Bull ants are assholes. 

As for how our pack is going, I'll admit I've been straying away a bit. The alpha is really rule driven and strict and I just don't fancy him too much. On top of that he's SUPER stubborn and opinionated and prides himself on being a rebel. I have been making closer connections to another member of the pack, though. She's super nice and understands me a whole lot better than our alpha seems to. Honestly, I just wish our pack would relax. Nobody's going to 'attack us' as much as they preach they will, there's no real strict construct of a wolf pack and I just wish they'd all loosen up. It's just a group of friends. And most of them are super young too. It gets annoying that me and that other girl are the only one's I'd say are a bit wiser and more educated but meh. I hope I can continue to positively influence them. 

There's also this 15 year old who claims she smokes weed. She think's she's above everybody else because of it and she only talks when she wants attention. She's just another one of those edgy angsty teenagers who's thrown themselves into this pit of being rebellious and dark and mysterious. I say just chill and live your life, don't fucking bother being such a little shit. Wow this chapter has just been me complaining about annoying people.

TLDR: Don't be a dick or an edgy teen and you'll be fine.