Therian Diary

Thursday, 20th of August 2015.

Whoa! It's been two months. Hello again weird kin diary. To update on whats been going on and stuff: I haven't meditated in a month. I don't know, I'm feeling more and more disconnected from my kintype, but occasional things bring it back up and make me feel spiritually aligned again.

I went to the snow with a couple of friends recently. It was about a 2 hour car drive. When we got there I was astonished. I was at peace, I was where I was supposed to be. I live in Australia at the moment, and most of this dry island doesn't get snow. So, I was very excited when I saw the landscape coated in a thick layer of white.

We don't have wolves over here, but there were these sled huskies that did tours. I'm surprised how big those dogs are. One of them jumped up on me and started licking me. (I love dogs so much.) My friend and I went with her family, and only she knew I was kin. So it really was the greatest feeling to howl and bark at the dogs with the whole family and stuff. They responded most of the time to our calls, and it felt great. It was like I was supposed to be barking. And it really did vocalise how lonely and isolated I felt inside.

Another great bit about it was yelling loudly while going down on toboggans, the snow pelting our faces. I don't know if it's just me or if all therians feel this, but when I make a loud noise or if I sing really loud I feel great? I'm being vocal like wolves should be so I guess that is to be expected. The icy breeze through my hair felt natural.

Another place I've visited recently was Emerald. I was up there with a few friends just last weekend. Though, I couldn't really act kin, Emerald is still my favourite place in the whole world I know today. It's about a half hour drive into the country. The wildlife is so different from the typical Australian setting! Beautiful oak and fir trees. All of these amazing european specimens. We actually found a very secluded path. There were a few fallen trees, and one of them had split directly down the  middle. We ventured so deep we could see our breath in front of us. It's the wet season right now, and the canopy of the forests traps in moisture. So when I went there, there was moss growing over EVERYTHING. There were these massive tall trees (like 12 metres) and they had moss growing all the way up. It was beautiful. It was truly an experience I'll never forget, seeing those trees and hearing all of the wildlife with no distractions. 

Since it is my favourite place, I decided to take back some of my favourite moss and grow it in a terrarium. It'll forever remind me of what a great place it really is. I can safely say that I would rather be walking through those forests than doing anything else.

Anyways, the warmer weather is starting to come in, I can feel it. It's nostalgic, but uncomfortable. I loved the winter months so much, and now they're coming to an end. I think being wolfkin makes me instantly prefer cold over hot. Also, in Australia, when it gets hot, it gets REAL hot. In other words, I'm going to die.

I think I'm going to meditate for a bit now. I'll write later.