Lottie

chapter 12

Dad was in hospital because the doctor wanted to talk to him. The doctor was saying that there was no cure for your cancer as its spread too far. He could have treatment but it would only give him an extra 2 moths, it wasn’t worth it. So dad decided not to have treatment.

There were 3 moths left and dad was looking really bad. The sight of him just made me sad.

“Hey dad” I said walking to his hospital bed

“Hello darling” he replied with a gloom look on his face.

His faced looked so week like a dark shadow struck cross his face. I would of hated mum to see him like this.

“Lottie are you ok?” he asked weakly

“Yes dad I'm just worried”

“You shouldn’t be”

“Well its hard it’s not to… you needs to get some sleep”, I said sniffing “I will come and see you in a few hours”

“Alright” he kissed me goodbye

Week past his life was getting shorter and shorter and he was getting worse and worse. I was really worried and scared.

“Good morning I got you a cup of tea” I told him handing him the cup.

“Cheers!”

A moment passed I was just staring at him

“Lottie what’s wrong I can see it in your eyes something’s up”

“It’s just you only have 2 weeks left”

“That’s just a number it could be after that and it could even be before” he said looking like it’s painful to talk.

I started to cry.

“Hey hey don’t cry don’t cry I don’t want you to cry”

“It’s so hard” I mumbled

I walked out not baring the fact that he was calm about this.

I had a vision again it was the same one as before. The man was very strange and I was worried. I had this vision for the rest of that week.

I was sitting next to dad with 3 days left, he was not very talkative and then,

“Lottie I want you to look after yourself. I want you to go back to college and I want you to make up with max. You need to have a good life”Dad said with feeling

I tear flowed down my face

“Why are you saying this now?” I asked knowing the answer to my question but not wanting to accept the answer. He face was a pale as paper and the spirit in his eyes were going.

“Lottie my dearest Lottie we knew this day was coming...”

“No dad no it can’t happen now no I can’t I won’t let it. NO why haven’t I got a vision no just no!” I blurted everything out with anger tears. Everything was coming out at once. The tears were streaming.

“I love you Lottie” he finally struggled to say

“I love you more” I replied devastated.

His eyes shut and he was gone. I cradled over his body, tears dripping on his face, and gave him a kiss. I crawled into a ball on the floor my heart, hope faith my everything crushed, I broke down. I head unfamiliar voices saying something but I couldn’t work out what it was I was too upset. I think they were asking me questions I just made grunting notices. One of the nurses picked me up and started bringing me out of the room. I snapped out of it and jumped out of her hands.

“NO!” I SCREAMED at the top of my voice with sorrow “I want to be with dad I NEED to be with dad” I begged as they were dragging me out of the room

“Come on give her some space” one doctor said. They all left me sitting there helplessly.

“Dad… I love you …forever” I kissed him on the head, with the tears overtaking my body

Then left.