Lottie

chapter 13

One foot plodded on front of the other while one huge tear fell after another as I walked back to grans house. I got there and all my tops, trousers and underwear were sprawled all over the ground outside grans house. On the top there was a note saying

 ‘I'm in town see you when I get back or not ha because you not living here anymore. You’re old enough to look after yourself. Bye won’t see you when I get back’

I can’t believe she is kicking me out. I don’t have anyone no mum, dad, brother, gran, no max and no house.no life. It was now I regret smashing down the hut because I could have slept in there. The night fell and it was pitch black. I was sitting in the side of the street a mess.

I thought I would not even last a day without max. And to be honest I was right since the day me and max had that argument all that’s happened is bad. I really wanted to make up with max because he didn’t do anything wrong I was but he would never take me back now. “Oh great” I shouted because rain started chucking its self at me. I wanted to organise a funeral for mum and dad and jay. I could only afford a small on thought because I didn’t have much money left.

I walked into the church grave yard. I had sent out invites to a few people like gran, maxes parents, even my teachers.

Time passed as I waited for over an hour for the arrival of at least one person. They didn’t show I figured that they weren’t ever going to turn up, they don’t like me. All three of my family member was going to be buried together. As the coffin was being lowered in to the ground I threw a white rose for my mum “I will always love you” I said to her. I threw a second white rose for jay “jay my brother I have and will always love you, I'm sorry”. I finally threw a last white rose into the hole whilst holding it together. “Dad I love you forever”. One by one each part of my body got dragged into sadness until I rolled into a ball on the flaw in apsause despair. I remembered all my time with my family. We went to an adventure park and jay threw up on one of the rides and when we were small jay and I had a water fight and we ended up socked from top to bottom. All the memories broke me down unable to breathe because of the teas attacked my face.